Gary's POV
The whistling of birds from outside disturb me from my sleep. What time is it?! "M...Mark.." I nudge him slightly trying to release his tight grip from me. "Mark... i need a wee..." Very slowly he opens his arms. "You should be in bed...why are you on the sofa?" I mumble whilst rubbing my eyes.
"Gaz it's too early go back to sleep." Robbie moans with his eyes closed. Instantly my eyes snap open. Wait... i wasn't asleep in Mark's arms?! He turns over on the sofa dozing back to sleep. Oh god Mark's been home alone for all these hours?? Quickly i grab my coat and head back outside not even saying anything to Robbie.
My mind runs through everything that happened last night whilst heading home. We kissed for the second time. What did i think of the kiss? Yeah...it was good, but why did i do it? Why didn't i push him away?? Do i have feelings now for Robbie which i didn't know existed? I soon got brought back to reality when i almost hit an on coming truck swerving it as quickly as i could. "Fucking hell!" My heart pounds. I could of been killed! Tears begin to fall down my cheeks. What if i could of died just then i would of died a cheater.
After a longer drive than expected i finally reached my house. My watch reads that it's 4:25am. Hopefully Mark hasn't woken up within the time i left. Surly he wouldn't of seeing as he's hardly had any good sleep being trapped in the hospital all them weeks. I put the key in the door opening it to be greeted by what it looks like is a robbery. Smashed vases, clothes all over the floor, shattered plates. Have we been burgled? But Mark... what if.... no... please god no. "MARK!" I call running upstairs to our bedroom. "Mark??? Are you ok?" Once i reach our bedroom i slam open the door to find an empty bed. Already i feel sick please don't let anything of happened to him. Quickly i run back downstairs calling his name. Until i find someone crawled up in a corner of the living room. "Mark?? Mark is that you??" I drop to my knees crawling over to him. His eyes are red like as if he's been crying. "Mark?" Gently i shake his shoulder waking him from his sleep.
He looks around the living room then at me. Tears begin to fill his eyes. "Y...You're...alive?" Is all he can mutter out as the tears roll down his cheek tightly hugging me as he breaks down.
"Babe? What's happened??" Stroking his back to try and calm him.
Mark's breathing increases from the crying. "I...I woke...up and...and you wasn't there...i had a bad...dream...that..you..you got killed....and...when...i opened...my eyes... you was gone...." He cries even louder squeezing me tighter.
Guilt comes back again. I can't believe i left him. "Oh Mark... i'm so so sorry...."
"Wh...Where did...you go...?" Slowly he lift his head to look at me. I can't lie to him...and i can't hurt him either... "I was at Rob's... he wanted me to go round..."
Mark frowns also looking confused at me pulling away from the hug a little. "Why?"
"Erm...he...erm..." I can't tell him about the kiss or the feelings...not just yet...i can't hurt him even more...he's given everything up for me...i'm just confused... i love him Mark more than anything and anyone. "To...watch the match..."
Mark looks at me shocked and hurt almost like i've just told him the worst thing in the world. "You left me alone, so you could go watch football?!!! I was going out of my mind!! Not even a goodbye when you left??! Well fuck you Gary! Fuck you!!" Mark angrily pushes me away from him causing me to fall backwards whilst he reaches for his crutches.
"Mark... i'm sorry... i really am... i didn't expect you to wake up... i didn't think i would be that long or fall asleep...please forgive me." Almost begging as i get to my knees looking up at him.
"Just leave me alone Gary." Mark shakes his head disappointed as he makes his way back upstairs.
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