Chapter 10

The sound of rain hitting against the window and the soft rumbling of thunder woke Gary up. Both Mark and Gary had fallen asleep after their little pleasurable moment together still naked. Soft snores came from Mark's half parted lips whilst his head was rested on Gary's chest. Slowly Gary lifted his head and realized what had happened the previous hours ago causing him to panic a little. "Mark..." He poked his friend in the ribs.
"Mhmm.." Mark didn't wake up softly he stroked Gary's chest with his hand.
"Mark! Wake up we need to get dressed." Without thinking about it Gary quickly jumped out of bed almost causing Mark to fall to the floor.
"What the fuck do you think you're doing??!!" Thankfully Mark stopped himself from falling. He sat up and frowned at Gary who was nervously falling all over the place trying to get dressed.
"S...sorry..i shouldn't be here... this was never meant to happen." Gary tried to neaten up his hair and clothes.
"What's that suppose to mean?" Mark gave Gary an evil glare. Did he really just say that? Why did he even say that is he trying to hurt Mark's feelings? After all Mark did say he loved Gary which took a lot of courage.
"You've got a family. Sorry." Just before Gary left Mark grabbed his hand so he couldn't.
"No..you're not getting away that easy Barlow... you can't just leave not after what happened and not after what i just said. Why are you so scared to admit it?" Mark shook his head angrily.
"Because it's not true... it can't be..." Gary bowed his head a little.
"Thanks Gaz... thanks a lot! You have made me feel like a great person. You know what just go. Get out my sight." Tears rose to Mark's eyes as he left the doorway and got back into bed under the duvet. Alone. Turning his back to the door which Gary remain stood in.

"M...Mark...i'm sorry i didn't mean it like that... sorry...i'm just..err...i've never been in this position...with a man..who's my best mate." Gary stood against the door like a nervous little boy who had just been told off. Playing with his fingers like he always did when he was nervous.
"Save it Gary. Just forget it ever happened." Mark's voice was breaking a little from his soft crying. It was now pretty obvious how hurt he was and the fact he's crying over Gary not wanting to admit his feelings..maybe because Mark wasn't the man he loved or he wasn't good enough to be loved by a man like Gary.
"P..please don't cry Mark.." Softly Gary closed the door and climbed back onto the empty space next to Mark.
"It's fine... glad you broke it off..before it got serious..and before i got too into it." He sighed softly wiping his eyes on the duvet.

Gary watched his friend for a little while. It's clear that Mark really likes him, so why is he so scared of admitting his feelings too? "Mark.. can i ask something..?" He asked a little nervous.
"What..?" Mark never turned round his eyes were fixed on the wall in front of him.
"If...we did.. you know..become serious... you'd erm...tell Emma right before we did? Please...don't cheat on her...she doesn't deserve that.." Gary's voice skipped a little.
Mark slowly turned around to see his older friend with his head bowed a little playing with the duvet which Mark was wrapped in. "I wouldn't cheat on her... as in fully dating you behind her back...i'd tell her... that's if we'd ever get together."
"Good..good...to hear...err.. you mean..w..when?" Gary cleared his throat a little.
"When? When what?" Mark asked a little confused.
"W...When...we're...together..." Slowly Gary rose his head to look at Mark.
Mark's eyes widened due from shock and excitement he never expected to hear Gary say that "You mean??"
Gary placed his hand on Mark's cheek and gently brushed away the remaining tears. "yes... i love you Mark Owen..." A soft smile formed on his face.

chapter 9

"Mark...?" Gary looked up holding the box still in his palm.
"Yes Gary...?" Mark's breathing increased a little. From a mixture of nervous and excitement.
Gary shook his head a little and moved to the direction of the bed and laid flat on it. "We can't do this..." The older male sighed staring up at the ceiling. "I might not be with anyone no more... but you're with Emma and you have children...what will this do to your family...i can't ruin that Mark i can't be responsible."
"Ayy... Gaz.. you wont.. this wont get out... i mean... if you don't want to then i understand.." Mark sat on the edge of the bed. He loved Emma he really did and he'll always be there for his children, but the way he felt about Gary was different. When he looked at Gary it made him feel happy more than he's ever been. Gary was there throughout his drinking problem and not to mention all the support through the years knowing him.
"I never said i didn't i mean... that hug.. it...it was breath taking...and the kiss..wow" Gary ruffled up his hair a little.
Mark moved a little closer to Gary his head almost resting onto Gary's chest. He felt safe in Gary's presence.
"M...maybe we shouldn't have... you know...just yet...but there's other things we could do..." Mark stroked Gary's upper arm.
A soft mumble leaves Gary's lips as he raises his head to look at the smaller male laying along side him. "What do you mean?" He looked confused at Mark who slowly sits up too.
Mark turns to face Gary looking a little shy. "Maybe.. if we...erm... play...with ourselves... it's not like we haven't done it before... the competitions we use to have at the back of the tour buses...the five of us.. so maybe...it wouldn't be too weird...right?"
"Erm...ok..." Gary agreed a little nervous.

After a few minutes of silence Mark unzipped his trousers and laid them neatly on the bed. Gary watched every move Mark made. Gary started to feel a little uncomfy in his boxers like he needed to remove his trousers. It was like already Mark has made an effect him. Maybe he does have feelings for Mark... maybe this could help to see if those feelings were believable... "Gaz?" Mark looked at him whilst removing his shirt and laying back onto the bed wearing nothing but his boxers facing the ceiling.
"Y..yeah..." It was Gary's turn to remove his clothing. Starting at the bottom removing his shoes, socks and trousers then followed by his shirt. He laid along side Mark on the bed. Both of them staring at one another for a moment or two.

Mark's hand gently stroked Gary's stubbled cheek causing him to moan softly. Their hearts beating almost out of their chests. Pleasure started to act now, as Gary's lips locked onto Mark's. Like a snake Mark's hand left Gary's cheek, but now it slipped under the hem of his own boxers and gripping his hardening length. They were kissing in sync with soft moans filling the room Gary couldn't take it much more he also had to pleasure himself. His erection was rubbing against his boxers making him even more uncomfortable. Still with their lips locked together Gary reached for himself without a seconds thought and started stroking himself.

Their hands worked wonders on themselves the deeper the kiss the became the faster their hands stroked. "Oh...f...fuck.." Gary grunted a little biting Mark's lip. It wouldn't be long until they have to surrender.
"Mm... let...go..." Mark panted closing his eyes tighter and moving his legs a little unable to keep it in much longer he needed to let go before he explodes. "I...I...er... OH GAZ!" He shouted releasing himself with a little going on to Gary's leg.
"Fucking hell..." It wasn't long after Gary finally let go feeling some of Mark's load on his thigh. Both of them collapsed on the bed panting for their breathes. "Wow..." Gary mumbled with his eyes closed.

Chapter 8

“Gary?” Mark shook Gary's shoulder. Gary didn't reply, no expression nothing. Mark stood up tears where streaming down his face. “I...i'm..so sorry...Gary...”Mark sobbed and walked towards the bedroom door.

“Stop...” Spoke a soft whisper.

Mark's head spun round with his hand still on the door handle. “G...Gaz?”

Gary walked towards the door, he put his hand on Mark's chest and pushed him against the door. Mark panicked, is Gary going to hit me? Mark thought, well i don't blame him.

“I'm sorry Gary.” Mark cried and closed his eyes thinking the worst.

Gary lifted the palm of his hand to Mark's cheek and gently wiped the tears pouring down them, his other hand remind on Mark's chest which stopped him from moving.

Mark was shaking, he slowly opened his left eye. Gary was looking at him, still there was no expression on Gary's face. “Please...don't cry Mark.” Gary stroked Mark's face with the back of his hand.

“Please...forgive me?” Mark cried and begged.

Gary sighed and pushed his lips against Mark's. Mark stared at Gary while their lips had been pushed together, Gary's eyes where closed and moving his head whilst he kissed Mark. Mark didn't think anything else, he closed his eyes too whilst they were in a passionate kiss together. Moans and groans came from the pairs mouths, Mark nervously lifted one of his hands up and placed it on Gary's back, Gary moaned loudly as Mark moved his hand into continuous circles like a soft massage. Mark panted and started to sweat.

After several minutes of being into a passionate embrace together the pair broke the kiss to get their breath back, Gary's hand rose and fell against Mark's chest, Mark was breathing extremely fast. Gary gave Mark a little smile and Mark gave him one back.
“Gaz..?” Mark panted.
“Yeah?” Gary removed his hand, so Mark could get his breathing back.
“I...I need more than this... please... make love to me..?” Mark looked at Gary.
Gary said nothing and walked to one of the draws of the room.
Mark stood still against the door, “oh shit” Mark thought, i've truly ruined it this time. “Gaz.. i'm so sorry!” Gary didn't reply he continued to look through the draws. “Gary?” Mark walked towards Gary. “What are you looking for?”
Gary looked up at Mark. “If we're going to do this... we need protection right?” Gary smiled holding a square blue box containing condoms.
Mark smiled back hugely . “Oh Gary!” He was not expecting to hear that.

chapter 7

Gary's heart skipped a beat. “What have i done?” He thought. “What have i done to upset little Markie my bestfriend?” Neither of the men spoke for a few minutes til Gary broke the silence. “M...Mark what have i done?”

“...You haven't done anything... that's the thing...” Mark tried to fight the tears, but he couldn't hold them back any longer.

“Mark?!” Gary wiped Mark's tears with palm of his hand.

He felt Gary's soft hand gently stroking his cheek, Mark's emotions were all over the place at the moment he couldn't control them, he took hold of Gary's hand, then turned and faced the older male. Mark moved forward a little to Gary's face he was inches away from Gary's lips. “It's you... because i love you...” Mark whispered then pressed his lips against his blonde friend's...

Mark's dream was then brought back to reality and as soon as he realized what he had done he moved his lips off Gary's. “GARY!!! OH GOD!!! I'm so sorry i never intended to do that!!! Please please forgive me! I don't know what came over me! Please Gary don't hate me please!!!” Mark begged Gary.

Gary sat on the bed, slowly blinking, he had no expressions on his face to show whether he enjoyed it or if he hated Mark for doing it. He didn't say anything either which made if harder for Mark, he was suffering, does Gary hate him? And has he ruined his 20 years of friendship, for his own needs?

chapter 6

Chapter 9:

Mark threw himself onto the neatly made bed, he closed his eyes for minute and sighed deeply , collecting his thoughts which went over and over in Mark's head. Mark moved further up the bed and layed his head onto the soft pillows, he pulled back the covers and got into bed still wearing his tour outfit he couldn't be bothered to get changed, he pulled the covers closer to his face which covered his mouth. After about five minutes of Mark trying to get comfy to try and get some sleep there was a very faint knock at Mark's hotel room door, Mark chose to ignore it and try again to get comfy. Another knock hit Mark's door a little louder and deeper this time. “Who is it?” Mark grumbled.

“It's me...” Spoke a voice from the other side of the door.

“Who?” Mark opened his eyes.

“G... Gary...” Replied the voice.

“What do you want?” Mark's voice started to sound a little more angry.

“I need to talk to you Mark... it's important...” Gary asked still from outside of Mark's door.

Mark sighed pulled the covers back and got out of bed, he unlocked the door to find Gary stood also in his tour outfit but wearing a dark purple colour dressing robe. Mark repeated his question “What do you want?” sounding more frustrated.

Gary's smile soon turned into a frown when he heard Mark's tone of voice. “Mark?” Gary touched Mark's shoulder.

“Get off me Gaz!” Mark pushed Gary away and went to sit back onto his bed.

“Mark? What's the matter i'm really worried now... is it Emma?” Gary nervously moved into Mark's room.

“NO!” Mark said sharply.

“Your little ones?” Gary bit his lip.

“NO!” Mark said again.

“Well what then?” Gary softly sat on the bed next to Mark.

“It's nothing... just drop it!” Mark turned his face away.

“Mark look at me.” Gary turned Mark's head back to face him. “I'm your friend, i care about you, and i'm worried please tell me what's wrong...”

Mark stared into Gary's beautiful deep eyes. Mark let out a deep sigh and too a deep breathe. “It's.... it's you...”

Chapter 5

“Five minutes til show time gents.” A crew member told the five men.

“COME ON LADS LETS DO THIS” Robbie bounced up and down.

“Woooh!” Jason raised his hands in the air and laughed.

“Wait, guys, wait.” Howard put of his hand flat. “Lets do it boy band style.” Howard winked. Jason put his hand on top of Howard's, Robbie put his hand on top of Jason's, Mark put his hand on Robbie's and Gary put his hand on top of Mark's. Mark felt Gary's beautiful soft,warm hand on top of his, it sent shivers down his spine (good shivers that is). Mark looked out the corner of his eye, he saw Gary staring at him. Mark liked it. He smiled, but without looking at Gary.

“3-2-1 ” Gary counted down. “Who are we?”

“Takeeeeeeeeee Thatttttt!” They all shouted while raising their hands.

“Oh Gaz” Mark giggled. It was as if Mark was flirting with Gary, but playing hard to get at the same time. Gary smiled at Mark and said nothing.

“Yaaay” Robbie was first out the room, Howard and Jason chatted down the corridor. That left Mark and Gary together it felt awkward, even though they were best friends Mark wanted more. “So you... excited?” Gary made conversation.

“...Yeah... you?” Mark wasn't his happy cheery self.

“Just nervous.” Gary smiled and put his arm on Mark's shoulder. They walked down to the other boys and was ready to start their gig.

The first night of Progress was over and Mark felt as if Gary was either teasing him or flirting with him, but either way Mark liked it and joined in. Mark sat in a limo with Howard. “You okay Mark.” Howard grinned looking at Mark from the facing seats of the limo. Mark didn't answer he was lost with thoughts, his thoughts of Gary, not just the thoughts about the “flirting” during the first night of the tour. “Mark!” Howard threw the towel which he used to wipe the sweat off him at Mark.

Mark shook his head. “Huh?”

“What's wrong Mark?” Howard tilted his head at Mark.

“What... what do you mean How?” Mark felt a baffled with his thoughts of Gary.

“I just threw my sweaty towel at you and you haven't even batted an eye lid..” Howard smiled.

Mark looked down at a sweating which lay on his arm and leg. “EW! Howard that's GROSS!” Mark threw the towel back at Howard. Mark giggled because the towel landed on Howard's head.

“Not even funny.” Howard chuckled from underneath the towel. Howard took the towel off his head and put it on the seat next to him. “Mark are you sure you're okay? You don't seem yourself.” Howard was always caring towards the others, and he always tried to help his friends out, Mark trusted him.

“Yeah... Yeah i'm fine mate.” Mark gave a nervous smile, but Howard didn't buy it.

“Mark, listen i know somethings not right... are you drinking again?” Howard moved to the seat next to Mark.

“Oh no no nothing like that... it's just...” Mark put his head down and sighed.

“Mark what is it?” Howard put his hand on Mark's back.

“It's...it's.... Gary...” Mark covered his face with his hands.

“G...Gary?” Howard looked confused. “What's happened Mark?”

Mark went to speak, but the limo driver interrupted him. “Mr. Owen... Mr. Donald... we've arrived at the hotel.” The driver got out and opened the door for Mark and Howard to get out.
“Thank you!” Howard and Mark got out. Mark walked up the steps to the hotel and Howard went after him. “Mark...! Wait! What was you gonna tell me?”
“It... it doesn't matter!” Mark seemed angry with himself and stormed off into his room.
A confused and worried Howard waited in reception for the others to arrive. He wanted and needed to talk to Gary, he thought that if he can't get anything out of Mark, he'd get something out of Gary.

Chapter 4

Mark sat in his changing room swinging his leg like naughty school boy who was in trouble, his arms where folded and he mumbled under his breath. “ How the fuck, could he be like this? Why does he always have to be the good boy?”. Mark mumbled and moaned about what Gary did. “ Get out Mark, get out, blah blah BLAH!”

“Mark?” Came a voice from the other side of the door. “Are you okay?” It was Gary.

“Go away Gary, i'm not going to talk to you!” Mark responded angrily.

“Can we talk?” Gary knocked on the door.

“Gary go away! And stop knocking on the door.” Mark shouted back.

Gary continued to knock on the door. After a few minutes the knocking had stopped, Mark put his head in his hands, and out along depressed sigh. The knocking started again, Mark lifted his head up, he was so anger that Gary wouldn't leave him alone, Mark stood up and flung his changing room door open. “ Gary i said go away!” Mark was shocked to find Robbie at the door. “Oh Rob... I thought it was...”

“Is everything okay Mark?” Robbie looked at Mark he had so much anger in his face, he wasn't the sweet hyper 39 year old who acted like a 5 year old.

“Erm... Yeah i'm fine just had a little argument with Gary... it's fine” Mark tried to smile, and he tried to get rid of his anger.

“But... Mark, Gary isn't talking he seems really upset.” Robbie was acting like the older concerned brother.

“Yeah Rob, i'm fine. I'm going to go and get changed, get a big night ahead of us.” Mark forced out a smile, and rubbed Robbie's arm. Mark shut the door and sat back down, he really needed to sort this out with Gary, and most of all he had to apologise, he felt something for Gary he really did and it would break his heart to say that he was only joking. Mark started to get changed after he was changed he'll go and talk to Gary.

Mark placed on his last item of clothing, it was his blue trousers with a red stripe up the sides, he sorted his flopping fringe out. Mark gave out a sigh and opened his door to go and find Gary. He reached a door with said in big letters “Gary Barlow's dressing room!” And next to it was a little piece of paper saying “Grumpy” which it then read “Grumpy Gary Barlow's dressing room!” It was obviously Robbie's handwriting. Mark giggled to himself, and he gave a gentle knock on Gary's door. No answer. He knocked again. “Gaz...? It's Mark. Mark spoke softly. The sound of the lock on the door opening and there stood Gary in his tour outfit, Mark couldn't keep his eyes off him. “Gary... Can we talk?” Mark looked into Gary's eyes, they looked red as if he'd been crying.

“Erm... yeah come in mate” Gary cleared his throat and gave Mark a gentle smile.

Mark stood in Gary's dressing room.”Did you see the sign on your door what Rob did.” Mark tried to cheer Gary up. Gary looked at the sign and smiled.

“Typical Rob!” Gary looked at Mark.

“Um... Gary have you been... crying?” Mark looked concerned at Gary.

“Yeah, i'm fine Mark.” Gary patted Mark's arm.

“I'm sorry what happened earlier... I was messing about you know me i'm always joking about.” Mark bit his lip, he hated himself for lying he wanted to tell Gary what he felt. “I think it's just nervous and that's what happened i'm so sorry it wont happen again.”

Gary looked into Mark's eyes he knew he was lying but he said nothing. “It's okay Mark.” Gary smiled again. “Well it looks like we better go and get the lads, it's almost time!”

“Yeah exciting isn't it!” Mark shone Gary will that trademark smile of his.

Gary gave Mark a hug, which made Mark's heart throb in his chest. “What was that for?” Mark smiled and looked confused.

“Just to say sorry for shouting at you earlier.” Gary walked out the door. “Come on then Marko lets goooo!” Gary punched the air, and went into the room where the other boys were waiting.

Mark leant against Gary's dressing room door, held his chest, took a deep breath and smiled. “Wow!” He whispered.”I feel like a fan who's just met Gary Barlow!” Mark followed Gary into the room.

chapter 3

Chatter came along the hallway, Mark sat back up, waited for Gary to come back into the room so they could sort stuff out. “Rob it wasn't a UFO mate.” Gary opened the door while carrying on his conversation with Robbie.

“Oh your back are you?” Mark grinned looking at both Robbie and Gary.

“ Hmm... Yeah were back.” Gary looked back at Robbie,

“So what was it then.” Howard looked up.

“ You took your time, we were starting to think that you got abducted by the UFO.” Jason joked.

“It was a balloon caught in one of the trees.” Gary raised his eyebrow at Robbie.

Jason,Howard and Mark burst out in laughter.

“Well it looked like a UFO, it was shiny, big, and-”

“It was a silver heart shaped balloon.” Gary added.

Robbie blushed. “Oh Rob.” Mark shone his white teeth to his friend.

“Right i'm off to get dressed”. Robbie went to his dressing room to get changed, and hide from the shame for a couple of minutes.

Mark sat back in the chair, he knew that Gary would come back over, and carry on with their conversation. What will i tell him? Mark thought. I can't tell him i love him, and not in a friendly way, in a i wanna be with you for the rest of my life way, Mark's thoughts went over, and over in his head. Mark closed his eyes, and took deep breaths, he could hear Gary walking over to Mark's chair.

“Right Mark... where were we?” Gary sat back on the arm of the chair.

“Um...” Mark thought what to say.

“Gaz me and Jase are gonna go and get changed mate.” Howard and Jason left the room to go and get changed.

“Okay, mate me and Mark will do in a minute, just having a little chat first.” Gary turned back to Mark.

Gary started taking his shoes off, then his trousers.

“Gaz, what you doing.” Mark seemed confused.

“I'm getting changed, carry with what you wanted to tell me, i'm still listening.” Gary carried on taking off his clothes, he stood now in his black boxers, and his shirt half undone. Mark couldn't keep his eyes off Gary. Mark stood up beside Gary.

“I feel like my lifes falling apart, i don't know what's happening. Mark dropped his head.

“Aw, mate.” Gary closed Mark into a hug.

Neither of the men let go for a while. “Feeling better Mark?” Gary asked still hugging Mark. Mark moved closer to Gary.

“Much better.” Mark snuggled into Gary's shoulder. Mark moved his hand up and down Gary's back. Mark pulled away slowly, Gary had his eyes closed, and his mouth slightly open enough for Mark to hear him. Mark started touching his friend in forbidden places, watching his facial expressions, changed from pleasure, then to guilt, and back to pleasure.

“What are we doing Mark?” Gary panted.

“I don't know Gaz.” Mark breathed.

They pulled away abruptly when they heard voices coming from the nearby door.

“Mark, i'm sorry, i had a bit to drink earlier, blame that, but what we just did was wrong.” Gary's eye widened.

“No, it wasn't... Gaz you felt something i know you did.” Mark grabbed Gary's hand.

“ Mark, it was wrong mate, it can never happen again... but when you think about it nothing really did happen.” Gary looked at Mark, he was still in shock.

“But it did though Gary, you liked, i liked it... and i bet you wanted to kiss me too.” Mark stared at Gary.

“Right that does it... get out Mark... let me continue to get changed, while you get changed in your dressing room.

“Your lying to yourself Gary.” Mark slammed the door. He shoved past the other boys who were walking along the hallway, and marched into his dressing room. Gary was still in the room, he sat down on the chair arm still half undressed, and put his head in his hands. “What had i just done.” He sighed.

Chapter 2

Mark stared at Gary, looking at his beautiful white smile, which sent flutters in Mark's stomach, Mark had no idea why, he rested his head on his hand, and carried on staring at Gary. Robbie raised his hand, and waved Mark over, Mark shook his head to get out his trance, Robbie waved Mark over again to join him and Gary to their conversation, but Mark just lifted his glass as to say that he's okay, he's enjoying his drink, and that he's relaxing on his own. Robbie smiled at Mark, nodded his head, and carried on his conversation with Gary.

Mark got his mobile out his back pocket, he needed something to distract him, so he wasn't staring at Gary, he didn't want to creep Gary out. Mark flicked through a few photos, until he came to a picture of him and Gary on holiday together about a year ago, both wearing shorts and vest tops standing in front of the beautiful blue sea, Mark smiled, and rubbed his thumb over the picture on his phone. A dark shadow hovered above Mark's head, and a voice come from it.” Oh looking at old memories are you?” Mark quickly clicked off the photo, and his head shot up to see who was standing over him. It was Gary, he was smiling, and was looking at Mark.

Erm... Yeah... Need something to do to pass the time... Where's Rob gone?” Mark looked over at the sofa where Robbie and Gary sat.

“He's gone out for a ciggy. How are you Markie, you seem quiet, everything okay?” Gary sat on the arm of the chair which Mark was sat in.

“ Yeah i'm fine... just worried about the show and all.” Mark needed to say something so he thought of something obvious.

“Don't worry Marko i'll look after you.” Gary grinned, and gave Mark a hug. It sent even more flutters in Mark's stomach, he started to get a little hot, and sweat trickled down his neck, Mark wrap his free hand which wasn't holding his glass around Gary for a few seconds, until Gary let go of Mark.

“Mark? Are you okay, your sweating i'll go and get a doctor.” Gary stood up off the chair arm and went to go to the door.

“No wait!” Mark grabbed Gary's arm. “I'm fine, it's just nervous... I promise you I'm fine.” Mark smiled at Gary, his blue eyes twinkled.

“If your sure.” Gary sat back down , and wiped some sweat off Mark's forehead, Mark closed his eyes for a few seconds, he didn't want Gary to stop, he was feeling things about the older man, feeling Mark could explain.

“Gary erm... i need to tell you something.” Mark opened his eyes, and stared up at Gary, who still had his hand on Mark's forehead.

“What is it mate?” Gary looked down at Mark, fixing his eyes with Mark's.

“Erm... I don't know how to say this.” He whispered so that Jason and Howard wouldn't hear. “I-I...” Mark couldn't get his words out, he was soon interrupted when the door slammed open, and there stood Robbie, with a cigarette still in his mouth, all four heads shot round to Robbie.

“Hey lads... you gotta see this i think it's a UFO! Robbie bounced up and down like a five year old.

“I bet it's a plane again Rob.” Howard joked.

“Oh yeah, remember that, when we were at the air port, it was kinda obvious.” Jason smiled.

“Gaz come look you believe me right?” Robbie grabbed Gary's arm and pulled him to look at this “UFO” (or more believable a plane)

“I'll talk later Mark unless it's really important?” Gary shouted while being pulled away by Robbie.

“Yeah... don't worry about it... it's not important.” Mark shouted back, he sighed and got comfy in his chair, thinking about what he had been feeling, and tried to work it out in his head.

Chapter 1

It was the first night of the Take That 2011 summer tour called Progress Live, and it was the first time all five members would perform on their very own tour. There was a few hours spear until they were due on stage, so they had a little rest and a chat. Mark went to the toilet leaving his four other band mates to carry on with their gentle chat.

Mark washed his hands after going to the toilet, looked in the mirror, and straightened up his floppy fringe. “Well here we go again.” He said while smiling at himself in the mirror. He left the toilets and went back to the room where he band mates were. He walked back into the room, Howard and Jason sat at one end of the room deep in conversation about break dancing and music Mark had never heard of, and at the other end sat Robbie and Gary, Robbie was making Gary laugh so much he was nearly crying, Gary put his hand on Robbie's shoulder to steady himself, and he wiped away the tears of laughter which dripped down his cheeks.

Mark stood there for a few seconds, poured himself a drink, and thought over in his head, these two are getting along great, they hated each other for so long, Rob was his best friend, Robbie hated Gary, now their both sat there laughing their heads off. Mark seemed jealous of Rob spending more time with Gary and not him, also the fact that when Rob had left the band Mark and Gary became bestfriends, and now Mark wasn't involved in their conversation. Mark slumped down into a nearby chair and sipped his drink. He was still watching Robbie and Gary in their friendly conversation, that's then when Mark realized that he wasn't jealous of Rob spending more time with Gary, he was jealous of the fact that Gary was spending more time with Rob and not him.