Chapter 29

Gary's POV

We reach Robbie's bedroom. Before i get time to have a glance around it i feel myself being shoved against the door. Robbie begins sucking against my neck whilst his hand snakes up my shirt stroking my torso. "Mhmm..." I murmur feeling his hand get higher, as he swirls and sucks around my pulse point.
"I've...been waiting....so long for this...Gary....." Robbie pants faster his fingers wrapping around each of my shirt buttons undoing them.
"Rob.....i..." My breathing increases as sweat builds on my forehead. A wash of emotions shower me whilst being pressed against the wall.
"You don't understand how much i want this....i want you Gaz....so bad....." He takes my hand in his walking me over to the bed. For the first time i feel incredibly nervous. Scared almost.
"I...I..I can't..." Stuttering a little trying to sit up on the bed. This is all too much it's too pushy and i just can't do it this way especially not whilst i'm in a relationship.
"Huh? What do you mean 'can't?'" Robbie raises his eyebrow at me removing his lips from my neck. "Is this because of Mark?"
Softly i nod. "I'm sorry...it was never meant to go this far...i guess it was just a little bit of fun..."
"Oh right...i see....you better go then."
Shyly i button my shirt back up as i slide off the silk covers. "Rob?"
"It's fine."
"But-"
"Just go Gaz." Robbie sinks into his bed. His back facing me. A quiet sigh leaves my lips as i leave the bedroom.

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{2pm the next day Gary heads back home after spending a few hours in a cafe then sitting on a park collecting his thoughts.}

"Mark..? Are you home?" Pulling myself through the door i hang up my keys on the rack before walking to the living room. "Mar-" My sentence is cut short seeing Mark laying on the sofa with a half empty bottle of red wine. A glass containing some of the liquid is half filled. Not once does his head lift by the sound of my voice he continues staring at the TV with his slightly red eyes. Feeling completely confused i walk over to him. "Erm...Mark...what are you-"
"Don't bloody start Gary." Mark holds his hand up to my direction causing my jaw to drop slightly. He drains the remaining bit of red wine from his glass using the back of his hand to wipe away any from his lips. "If i want to get bladdered i bloody well can."
My eyebrows raise from his childish attitude which i'm receiving. "Where are the kids?"
"Emma took them back...thanks for telling me they needed dropping off this morning." Mark pours himself another glass.
"Huh? What do you mean?"
Mark rolls his eyes. "Don't you listen or something? Emma said she told you that she needed the kids dropping off this morning. Yet once again you disappear leaving me with the mess. I'm sorry for my baggage. If you don't like it why don't you just throw me out?! Is that why you've been disappearing??? Is that it ay?!" Mark pokes me in my ribs.
"N...no it's not... Mark i'm sorry... i really am..."
Angrily shaking his head Mark frowns at me. "Sorry?! Fucking sorry?? What if she stops me from seeing the kids?? I could of died because of you this is all your fucking fault Gary Barlow!" He throws his glass against the wall. Wine droplets roll down my cream wallpaper. My heart drops like a lead weight in my chest. I don't know this man. This isn't my Mark. Is this down to the drink? "Gaz..?" Sadly he looks up at me like a school boy who've just been told off.

Fighting my tears i quickly run out of the living room and into my car. Seeing Mark stumble to the front door i waste no more time, as i pull off the driveway speeding down the road. My mind  is completely fuzzy. He blamed me for the accident..... he blamed me.... tears come flooding down my eyes making it harder to see where i'm driving. Feeling confused and hurt my mind drifts back to the way how Robbie acts around me. Sweet, caring, handsome man and i hurt him. The way i'm feeling now i can feel his pain. I've upset the man who loves me......and who i sort of love too. Sod it. Putting my foot down i head back to Robbie's house.

Once i arrive at Robbie's house i slam my car door shut as i start marching up his driveway to his front door. The curtains are still closed like they were when i left early this morning. Maybe he's still in bed? Or maybe he just wants to be left in peace. There's only one to find out pulling back my fist i knock onto the front door. Silence is on the other side of the door. Again i knock this time a little louder. Still no reply. Perhaps i should just leave him alone. My phone starts to ring. 'Incoming call - Marko x' "No chance." I mumble to myself. Right now i don't want to talk to him. Not after what he said. Blaming me...saying i was the reason he almost died. Anger fills my stomach i hit my hand against the door handle causing the door to slowly open. That's when i realise that Robbie must still be where i left him. In the bedroom. "Rob?" I call as i walk into the hallway closing the door behind me. Movement sounds upstairs. "Rob? Are you ok?"
"G...Gaz?" A voice sniffs from upstairs.
I start to make my way up the stairs. "Where are you?" All of a sudden the bedroom door opens and there stands a still half undressed Robbie. This time his eyes are red. "Have you been crying?"
"N...no.." Shyly he looks to the floor. "Why are you here?"
Slowly i move forward to him stroking his messy hair. "Because."
"Because of what? I don't want to messed about with Ga-" I cut Robbie's sentence short as i lock my lips onto his pushing him forcefully against the wall. My hands exploring his torso causing the younger man to release a moan against my lips.

Pulling him closer wrapping my arms tightly around his hips as i walk him over to the bed allowing us to fall onto it. Continuing the kiss i straddle his hips feeling his hands softly stroke up and down my back. Robbie's tongue demands entry into my mouth. Very slowly i part them allowing him access. Whilst he tongue plunges to the back of my throat i quickly unbutton my shirt throwing it behind me. Robbie looks up at me now shirtless and panting heavy pleading for his touch. His hands grip to my belt buckle. Pulling me closer causing my chest to make contact with his feeling both of our pounding hearts beat together. Not taking his eyes from mine he slowly loosens my belt slipping my trousers down to my knees revealing my tight boxers. "Gaz..." A breathless whisper escapes his lips. Gently i place a finger against them preventing anymore sound to leave them.

After several minutes of kissing i look at him deep in the eyes. Nothing mattered right now. His fingertips burnt against my bare skin. Tasting his addictive kisses. I need him. My body needs him. "Have you got...anything...?" Softly i grunt against his ear.
Robbie lifts his head a little surprised looking at my face seeing if i was joking or not. "A...are you...sure?"
A nod is all i reply with. Grinning like a Cheshire cat Robbie reaches into the bedside drawer pulling out a blue shiny packet. "Do you...or?"
"You..." Softly i smile laying beside him on my stomach. For a second or two Robbie sits up staring at me half naked. His hand softly strokes my back making me weaken under his touch. "Something wrong?"
"Nothing... everything's perfect..." Placing the condom packet in between his teeth he rips the top off. I watch every movement he makes. Firstly he removes his boxers i grip my bottom lip tightly when i see his hardened length make contact with his hand, as he slowly slides on the condom. "R...ready..?" Nervously he asks whilst getting on his knees looking at me.
A soft smile appears on my face. "More than ever...."

Robbie gently pulls down my boxers and positions himself against my entrance causing me to moan loudly feeling him pressing against me. Feeling like a lifetime he finally slowly pushes into me. At first its feels like a burning pain. Slightly different to Mark. His thrusts begin slow giving us both time to get use to it. The pain is quickly replaced by pleasure as he increases the thrusts. "Oh...Rob..." Moaning loudly i grip to the duvet. His hands hold onto my hips moving me against him.
"This...feels...so so...good..." Robbie rapidly increases his speed. Running his hand through my hair pulling my head backwards so we can start off another passionate kiss.

The kiss deepens even more and the thrusts start to drive us both over the edge. "Sh...shit..." Robbie growls loudly getting close already.
"Yes...do it... i want to feel you..." Loudly i moan pushing my hips backwards onto him driving him even more insane until he can't take it any longer. "Come on Rob..."
Hitting harder into me it soon gets too much for the pair of us as we both release ourselves. "FUCK GARY!" Robbie shouts collapses on top of my back filling me with his load.
"God yes......" I grunt feeling myself let go as well. We both lay together. In complete silence the only sound is our heavy breathing.

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{2 hours later}

The sound of my phone ringing causes me to wake up. "Huh?" Slowly i open my eyes. Robbie's arms are tightly wrapped around me. His eyes remained closed, as we both lay naked under the duvet together. Without making a sound i reach over to my phone. '12 missed called - Marko x - 1 new voicemail.' Feeling incredibly guilty i press the mobile against my ear whilst hitting the play button on the voicemail. "Gaz? Gary please pick up? I'm going out my mind. I'm sorry... i know that doesn't make up for what i said. I was upset and i shouldn't of taken it out on you. Words cannot describe how much i love you. It wasn't your fault what happened to me it was my own. I was sticking up for you, because i love you and i'll do anything even risk my life for you. Please Gary...please come home... i miss you it hurts my heart hurts. I feel dead inside without you.. {Mark takes a deep breath. His voice becomes unsteady and his breathing becomes faster due to him crying.} You're....you're my life Gary Barlow... i can't wait to start our family... you, me, Lucy, Luke and our little baby... i miss your arms around me... your scent which brings me comfort...p....plea...please...come...come home... where...you belong...please baby.... i love you..." Tears stream down my face. Poor Mark... what have i done...?

Chapter 28

Gary's POV 

Quietly I close the spare room door where Luke's fast asleep. My back slides down the wall to the bottom of the stairs. "M...Mark..." I pop my head around the living room door where Mark's dozed off on the sofa with Lucy who's curled up on the floor also asleep. "Mark..." 
His eye lids flicker a little. "Mmhhuh?" 
"I er...I need to...nip out quickly..." My throat feels dry. Why has Robbie suddenly got this affect on me. Its almost like I'm no longer controlling my body.
Mark rubs his eyes a couple of times whilst glancing over at his watch. "Go tomorrow...let's go to bed." Resting his head back onto the sofa he closes his eyes again. 
My heart pounds. For some reason I HAVE to see Robbie tonight. I miss him....really miss him....my mind drifts back to the kisses we've shared. "No Mark I need to go now its important." My words come out quick without giving me chance to realize what I've just said. 
In a very sleepy voice Mark agrees. "Alright...alright...just don't...be...lo-..." Failing to finish his sentence his eyes give way as he falls back into a deep sleep. 

Without giving it any more thought I jump into my car pushing the key into the engine to head to Robbie's. He doesn't even know I'm on my way. Hopefully it'll be a surprise. It pains me to think what this will do to Mark, but I just need to see Robbie. 

Nervously I turn off my headlights as I park onto his drive. Its gone midnight already he must be in bed. Quickly I close my car door making my way up to his front door. Maybe its a bad idea...I mean I'm in a relationship with the man of my dreams yet I'm doing this. After a minute or two I decide to knock on his front door. Nothing. No movement. He must be asleep after all he is a deep sleeper. Knocking a little louder whilst I look over at my car. This is probably a sign telling me to leave. As I make my way back to my car a voice calls from inside. "One sec... Just getting the key." 

My stomach begins doing flips even my forehead starts to get a little sweaty. The front door swings open. Standing in front of me is a now shirtless Robbie wearing some dark blue boxers and black socks. "Oh...hi...Gaz..." He rubs his eyes. Robbie isn't the type to feel embarrassed he use to always walk around naked back in the day. My eyes fix onto his half naked body. The detailed ink on his skin making my imagination run wild.
"Hiya...Rob..." Forcing out a friendly smile to him as I continue to stare a little.
"You better come in...fucking freezing out here." Standing aside of the door he allows me to come in. Without hesitation I walk straight into his living room. "Want a drink or owt?" Robbie appears behind me rubbing his sleepy eyes.
Flinching slightly by the sound of his voice I turn around. "N...no thanks.." It feels awkward very awkward just standing here whilst he's in his boxers. Not that I'm complaining. I've seen him naked plenty of times, but this time...him being half naked standing behind me feels different. 

"Take a seat." Politely he smiles at me whilst he sits on his leather sofa crossing his leg. I shuffle over to the other sofa opposite him. My fingers cling to one another trying to hide my nerves. Get a grip Gary. Repeating over in my head whilst my eyes focus on my fingers. "Gaz?" A hand shakes my shoulder knocking me out of my daze. 
"Huh? W...what?" Quickly I look up to a worried Robbie sitting beside me. 
"I asked if you was ok? What's happened?" 
Glancing around his living room looking for a distraction I can't hold it in any longer. Allowing my eyes to fix to his lips. Thin, smooth, wet lips. Addictive from the start. My lips begin to twitch watching his tongue slowly slide along his own lips. 

"Gaz? What is it? You're scaring me mate...you don't look well...." Gently he places his hand onto my burning forehead. "Jeeez Gaz! You're burning up!" 
Panic strikes me when I see him reach for his mobile resting on the sofa arm. "Kiss me!" Breathing faster than before. I freeze. My whole body freezes almost like someone's paused me. We both stare at each other. Robbie's expression on his face completely blank. 

Robbie studies my face like he's buying a new car. Looking at my lips, my eyes...deep in my eyes then back to my lips. "R..Ro-" All of a sudden I feel pressure against my chest knocking me back into the cushions. Robbie's lips pressing against mine. Our lips forming a deep, but passionate kiss. Instantly my arms wrap around the back of his neck pulling him even closer to my lips. His tongue parts my lips entering my mouth. Swirling around mine then hitting the side of my mouth exploring every inch causing deep moans to leave our mouths. 

Travelling from my lips his teeth sink into my neck causing me to whimper a little. Gently he sucks the area he bit. Soothing the area where he's just fetched blood. I don't care this all feels to good. "R..Rob.." Looking at his boxers seeing something make an appearance. Its hard to keep these feelings in much longer. Our hands lock together. Softly he strokes the top of my hand with his thumb keeping me calm. This all feels so good yet so very wrong. Slowly he helps me off the sofa whilst we make our way to the direction of the stairs.

Chapter 27

Mark's POV

We decided to head back to Gary's, because the sky started to turn dark like there's going to be a massive thunderstorm. "Do you want a coffee Gaz?" I ask limping to the kitchen using now only one crutch giving myself a bit of practise.
"Ayyy easy Mark. Are you sure you can cope with just one?" Gary fusses around me. I hate it when people cause a fuss when there's no need.
"Babe i'm fine honest. Put the kids a film on and i'll get us some drinks to warm us up, yeah?" Softly i peck him on the cheek heading to the kitchen to put the kettle on. Today has been great. It's like our own little family. Daddy Mark and Daddy Gary. I smile to myself whilst making the drinks.
"Right kids....which film shall we watch?" Gary asks as i enter the room carrying two hot mugs. He instantly stands up taking them from me. "Sit mister." He orders. To be honest i am feeling rather knackered. It's the most i've done the past few weeks.
"I wanna watch Harry Potter!" Luke bounces up and down on his bum.
Lucy shakes her head. "Noooo! I want to watch erm....Ice Age!"
Gary scrolls through the movie channels on his plasma. "Ooooh! Up's on! Can't beat a Disney!" Holding my stomach a little to stop the burning sensation from my wound i laugh at him. He's like the third child.

Luke lays on the bean bag with Lucy on the floor. Already Lucy looks like she's about to drop off sometime soon. The movie starts showing two young children who become friends they fall in love grow old together then wife of the man's dies. Gary sniffs a little causing me to look up. A few tears leave his eyes. "Daddy! Gary's crying!" Lucy looks at me.
"Aww Gaz are you ok?" Softly i stroke his arm. Quickly he wipes away his tears trying to hide the fact he cries over films especially Disney's.
"Huh what no i'm not.."
"Cryings for girls....." Luke giggles.
Trying not to laugh i look at Gary. "Are you sure you're ok?"
"Yes.... just had something in my eye." Gary grins a little. "I'll get us popcorn."
Gently i kiss him on the lips before he stands up. "Awwwh."
"Ewwww kissing's for girls too!" Again Luke laughs whilst laying on the beanbag.

Soft pattering of rain sounds against the window causing me to open my eyes. I must of fallen asleep. The film's finished and everyone's fallen asleep. The kids fast off on the beanbag and Gary sound asleep resting against his hand. Shit the kids needed to go home Emma will be worried. "Gaz...Gary?" Gently i nudge him.
"Huh? Who? What?" He flinches snapping his eyes open. "M...Mark? What's wrong?" Rubbing his red eyes he looks at me.
"Erm... did Emma say what time the kids needed to go back?"
Gary stretches his arms out. "I asked if they could stay over and she said that was fine." He looks at the pair fast asleep on the floor. "Bless i'll take them to the spare room... erm...is that ok if i carry them up?"
"Gary you don't need to ask that. You're my boyfriend you're technically family." A soft yawn leaves my lips.
"Want me to carry you too?" He raises his eyebrow whilst lifting Luke into his arms heading towards the door.
"Nah i'll make my own way up in a sec." I sigh happily watching Gary carry Luke to bed. This is amazing i couldn't be happier.

Gary's POV

"Sweet dreams mate." Softly i kiss Luke's forehead tucking him into bed. I love spending time with Mark's family. As stupid as it sounds i actually felt part of the family almost like it was our family... i sigh a little feeling my phone vibrate in my back pocket. (1) new message - Rob. My heart beats faster in my chest the feeling come back again. Feelings i can't describe...strong feelings. In my head i feel like a teenager again. My finger moves over to the open button. 'Hey Gaz... i miss you... please i've got to see you again soon... i can still feel your soft lips... R x' Reading the message over and over until i feel i can no longer control my fingers i type a message back. 'I miss you too....' 

Taking a deep sigh i sit on the spare bed which Luke's fast asleep in. What am i doing? After such a great day with Mark and the kids. I can't loose this i can't loose Mark.... but Rob.... i feel something... his name gives me flutters... i don't want to be a cheater.... i'm so confused...

Chapter 26

Mark's POV

I can't believe he actually left me. It's not like i could of died or anything a couple weeks ago... bastard. What if my stitches where to come undone whilst he was having fun. I close my eyes for a split second until i hear footsteps make their way upstairs quickly i close them tighter to make out as if i'm asleep. Right now i don't want to talk to him let alone see him. "Babe? Are you awake." Gary's voice whispers through the door. Still i lay on the bed with my eyes closed. "Mark? I'm nipping to the shop do you want anything?"
"No." I reply sharply whilst slowly turning onto my side, so my back faces him.
Quietly he sighs. "Ok... i wont be long... love you."
Feeling awful even though i shouldn't i stare out the window trying to keep my eyes focused as i hear him leave the room and go back downstairs.

I've lost everything for him i wish he actually showed me he cares not by buying me things or spoiling me i'd love it if we both were to lay in bed together watching a film, cuddling or even talking. Maybe he's getting bored of me now after the accident. Can't wait for these stitches to be finally removed so i can be back to my normal self going out more... giving him the sex and pleasure... again that could be the reason he's the way he is. No Mark don't. Don't even think about him cheating on you. You know him better than that. Slowly i close my eyes trying to get a little bit of rest before he comes back.

The sound of the front door closing loudly wakes me up. Woah. How long have i been asleep for? Over 2hours that was a long shopping trip. To be honest i might as well stay in bed today i really don't feel like going down at all. Gary mumbles downstairs in the hallway talking to somebody. "Alright alright calm down." He laughs a little. Who the hell is it? "He's upstairs. Lets get him." Diving my head back under the duvet i pretend i'm asleep as Gary and the visitor walks upstairs. "Sssh... he's asleep." Gary whispers. "Mark? Mark wake up you've got some visitors." Even though i can't see his face i can tell he's smiling almost like he's pleased with himself. Very slowly i open my eyes.
"DADDY!" Is this a dream??! I blink a few times not believing what i'm seeing. My two children. My two beautiful children with huge grins filling their faces stand in front of me.
"O...Oh... gosh... kids!" Instantly i sit up ignoring the slight pain in my stomach as i give them both a tight hug. Gary smiles at me standing behind them."Have you missed Daddy?" He asks stroking Luke's hair.

Jumping with excitement Lucy giggles. "Yes! Yes! How are you feeling Daddy?"
"So...so much better now.... wow..." A few tears escape my eyes.
Luke pats my hand a little. "Daaaad... don't cry...."
"I know son... i know it's not very cool of me." I wink a little whilst wiping my eyes. "I've just missed you both sooo so much." Giving them another tight hug i mouth the words to Gary 'Thank you.'
He nods in reply still smiling. "Ay that's not all is it kiddies."
"Ohhhh Dad! Dad! Guess where we are going!" Lucy jumps up and down again high on sugar.
Luke pouts and folds his arms. "No! I wanna tell Dad!"
"You both can tell him." Gary laughs.
"We... are going... to have...... A PICNIC!" Both of them shout giggling.
Looking at them both then at Gary whilst grinning widely. "Are we?"
"We sure are." Gary pulls a picnic basket from behind his back. "Come on lets let Daddy get some rest before we go."
"No...no it's fine i've had a few hours. I'm excited to go now." I smile reaching for my crutches.

Once we find a spot within the field we settle down. Gary unfolds the picnic blanket, so we can sit down. "Are you ok babe? Will you be comfortable?"
Sitting down slowly hissing when a burning pain in my stomach approaches. "No...no i'll be fine." I try and find a comfortable position. We set out the food on the blanket. Sandwiches, cakes, drinks, sweets, pork pies, cocktail sausages and scotch eggs fill the blanket. "Are we eating for the 5000." I laugh a little reaching for a sandwich
"You'll only be complaining that you're hungry when we get back home." Gary laughs opening a can of Pepsi and taking a long gulp of it. Lucy and Luke instantly dive for the cakes and sweets. "Your Mummy said not too many sweet things."
Oh shit i forgot about Emma. "Erm... How is she?" Nervously i ask.
"She seems to be doing ok... i mean she's still not.. you know... she wasn't too pleased to see me at first, but when i explained to her about your accident and how much you are missing the kids. She wouldn't of said no. Although she's awfully worried about you..." He talks quietly as the kids get up to play with their ball.
Staring at the kids play together my heart starts to hurt slightly from missing my family, but Gary means the world to me. "I see... yeah... i feel so bad Gaz.." Sighing softly i rest my head against his shoulder. "I'm sorry for being a twat to you today... i just don't like being left on my own... i don't want to loose everyone i care about..."
"I...I'll never leave you Mark... i promise..." Gary stutters a little like something bothering him.
I lift my head a little to look at him. His eyes are focused on the blanket. Like he's lost in his own thoughts. "Is everything ok? Are you ok?"
Gary shakes his head a little. "Yeah..yeah i'm fine... just been worried about you and everything."
"I'm fine... I mean i will be fine once i can be back to my normal self ... you see i promise." Gently i kiss his lips. His fingers entwine with mine as we watch the kids play football. Lucy pouts when Luke kicks the ball in her goal she sits down crossing her arms and legs whilst he runs round cheering for himself. "Play nicely with your sister Luke." I laugh a little. Lucy sticks her tongue out at him whilst picking up the ball to continue with the game.
"You know... i'd love to be a Dad one day..." Gary randomly says.
Feeling a little surprised i look at him. "Really??"
"More than anything... new house... maybe married... the two of us with our own son or daughter... with a beautiful brother and sister to play with.... perfect." Gary sighs happily.

Chapter 25

Gary's POV

The whistling of birds from outside disturb me from my sleep. What time is it?! "M...Mark.." I nudge him slightly trying to release his tight grip from me. "Mark... i need a wee..." Very slowly he opens his arms. "You should be in bed...why are you on the sofa?" I mumble whilst rubbing my eyes.
"Gaz it's too early go back to sleep." Robbie moans with his eyes closed. Instantly my eyes snap open. Wait... i wasn't asleep in Mark's arms?! He turns over on the sofa dozing back to sleep. Oh god Mark's been home alone for all these hours?? Quickly i grab my coat and head back outside not even saying anything to Robbie.

My mind runs through everything that happened last night whilst heading home. We kissed for the second time. What did i think of the kiss? Yeah...it was good, but why did i do it? Why didn't i push him away?? Do i have feelings now for Robbie which i didn't know existed? I soon got brought back to reality when i almost hit an on coming truck swerving it as quickly as i could. "Fucking hell!" My heart pounds. I could of been killed! Tears begin to fall down my cheeks. What if i could of died just then i would of died a cheater.

After a longer drive than expected i finally reached my house. My watch reads that it's 4:25am. Hopefully Mark hasn't woken up within the time i left. Surly he wouldn't of seeing as he's hardly had any good sleep being trapped in the hospital all them weeks. I put the key in the door opening it to be greeted by what it looks like is a robbery. Smashed vases, clothes all over the floor, shattered plates. Have we been burgled? But Mark... what if.... no... please god no. "MARK!" I call running upstairs to our bedroom. "Mark??? Are you ok?" Once i reach our bedroom i slam open the door to find an empty bed. Already i feel sick please don't let anything of happened to him. Quickly i run back downstairs calling his name. Until i find someone crawled up in a corner of the living room. "Mark?? Mark is that you??" I drop to my knees crawling over to him. His eyes are red like as if he's been crying. "Mark?" Gently i shake his shoulder waking him from his sleep.

He looks around the living room then at me. Tears begin to fill his eyes. "Y...You're...alive?" Is all he can mutter out as the tears roll down his cheek tightly hugging me as he breaks down.
"Babe? What's happened??" Stroking his back to try and calm him.
Mark's breathing increases from the crying. "I...I woke...up and...and you wasn't there...i had a bad...dream...that..you..you got killed....and...when...i opened...my eyes... you was gone...." He cries even louder squeezing me tighter.
Guilt comes back again. I can't believe i left him. "Oh Mark... i'm so so sorry...."
"Wh...Where did...you go...?" Slowly he lift his head to look at me. I can't lie to him...and i can't hurt him either... "I was at Rob's... he wanted me to go round..."
Mark frowns also looking confused at me pulling away from the hug a little. "Why?"
"Erm...he...erm..." I can't tell him about the kiss or the feelings...not just yet...i can't hurt him even more...he's given everything up for me...i'm just confused... i love him Mark more than anything and anyone.  "To...watch the match..."
Mark looks at me shocked and hurt almost like i've just told him the worst thing in the world. "You left me alone, so you could go watch football?!!! I was going out of my mind!! Not even a goodbye when you left??! Well fuck you Gary! Fuck you!!" Mark angrily pushes me away from him causing me to fall backwards whilst he reaches for his crutches.
"Mark... i'm sorry... i really am... i didn't expect you to wake up... i didn't think i would be that long or fall asleep...please forgive me." Almost begging as i get to my knees looking up at him.
"Just leave me alone Gary." Mark shakes his head disappointed as he makes his way back upstairs.

Chapter 24

Gary's POV

As quiet as possible i put my shoes back on whilst sitting on the bedroom floor. "G...Gaz...mmm..." Mark gets a little restless in his sleep again.
"Shhh..." Gently i stroke his forehead to calm him. Instantly from my touch he calms down even a little smile appears on his face in his sleep. "Love you.." Softly i sigh placing a kiss on his forehead. I creep out of the bedroom closing the door slightly behind me. My stomach fills with guilt. Hopefully he stays asleep until i get back. I wont be that long... i hope...

I lock the front door before getting into my car to set off to Robbie's house. What if we end up fighting... that will just make Mark stress even more and he doesn't need any more stress...not after what he's been through. My eyes begin to get heavier i haven't slept good these past few weeks and driving at 10 o'clock at night doesn't help. God i need coffee. After a 20 minute drive i finally arrive at Robbie's. He's already at the window waiting for me. Softly i smile at him whilst turning off the engine. He replies with a friendly wave then disappears.

Slowly i walk up the path to his front door before i even get the chance to knock it already comes open. Robbie stands at the door grinning. "Gaz!" We give each other a friendly tight hug. Already i feel like i could just stand here and fall asleep in his arms.
"Alright Rob... how're you?" I yawn a little looking up from his arms. We still stand on the doorway hugging one another.
Robbie shines me with another one of his cheeky grins. "I'm good mate... how's you and Markie?"
"Erm... i'm just tired i guess... and Mark's asleep." A sigh leaves my lips. "Can we go inside? It's a bit chilly out here."
Robbie loosens me from the hug and greets me inside. "I don't want you take it the wrong way, but you look awful Gaz...go on get sat down i'll get you a coffee."
"You're a star Rob...cheers." Without hesitation i walk into the living room to sit on his sofa. He's got one of those brown leather corner sofas, but you don't just sit on it you almost sink  into it like a giant marshmallow. On the tv is the Liverpool match. I'm even too tired to pay attention to my favourite team playing. The smell of coffee comes from the kitchen. It's never smelt so good before. My eyes start to get heavy again whilst waiting, but before i go to give in Robbie walks back in carrying a white steaming mug.
"Here get this down you mate." He hands me the mug which i instantly sip. "How are you feeling Gaz? In yourself? You need to look after yourself too not only Mark." I feel Robbie place his hand onto my forehead. I hate it when people fuss around me.
"I'm fine honest... as soon as Mark's better again...it will put my mind at ease..." My eyes fix onto the mug watching the steam leave.
"Are the pair of you ok? Have you had an argument or something?" He raises his eyebrow at me whilst sitting beside me on the sofa.
"N...n..no? Why would you ask that? Has he said something to you?" Nervously i ask continuing to sip my coffee.
"No we haven't spoke in a while... i just thought because of what... well you know... the last time we saw each other it didn't exactly end as planned did it...?" Robbie clears his throat a little. He's talking about the kiss isn't he? My cheeks start to burn from embarrassment.
"Erh..n..no it didn't... and i'm sorry..." I can't even bring myself to look him in the eyes now. I kissed my best friend for god sake.
Robbie sighs a little. "Mark doesn't know i take it? Guess it was just a spare of the moment thing from excitement."
If i don't feel bad already i feel even worse now. "Rob.. i really am sorry... yes it was excitement...-" I pause from finishing my sentence as Robbie moves over to me a little more.
"Do you regret it?" He asks. Not expecting that as his reply i sit there for a few seconds. How do i answer that?!
"I'm with Mark... i love him more than anything... i could never cheat on him... especially not after almost losing him."
Feeling a hand make contact with my cheek. Robbie strokes the back of his hand against my stubble. "But...do you regret it... come on Captain..." He grins a little. Is he drunk? Moving even closer to me his face inches from mine.
"I...I...er...-" Before i get to finish what i'm about to say very gently Robbie pushes his lips against mine. Causing me to forget about everything what's happened. Just focusing on the kiss. His soft wet lips stroking against mine. They taste good. The kiss is good. Slowly after a few seconds he pulls away which brings me back to reality. It almost feels like i've forcefully fell onto hard ground realizing what's just happened for the second time. Mark. What about Mark?? What have i done??

"Well?" Robbie smiles. "How do you feel now?" A mixture of emotions run through my body mainly my mind. The main thing i can't get out of my head or should i say the main someone is Mark. Do i also like Robbie? We've had our bad times in the past, but now? Do i feel something for him?? A tear escapes my eye and falls onto Robbie's leg. "Gaz? Are you crying? Mate what's wrong?" Worry fills his face as he grabs my shoulder looking into my red eyes.
"I...I'm...I'm so tired Rob..." Tears begin to stream down my face. What's happening to me? I'm a mess a complete mess.
"Ay... it's ok Gaz..." Robbie pulls me against his chest as the tears fade into his shirt. "Everything will be ok... i promise." For the first time in weeks i feel safe. I feel protected in Robbie's arms. My eyes begin to forcefully shut as Robbie's gently rocks me whilst stroking my back...

chapter 23

After two weeks of Mark being stuck in a hospital during the summer including a heatwave he was finally allowed to come home. Gary stayed by his side the whole week never once did he leave him apart from when he needed the toilet. The stitches needed to stay in a couple more weeks which meant Gary had to help him a lot at home incase like in his dream they would split open causing serious problems.

Gary's POV

"Home sweet home!" Mark grins slightly as i help him inside. He's got to be on crutches one reason being because of his stitches another reason is when he fell in the road he also did a bit of damage to his back. Nothing serious, but they make him more comfortable when getting around. Carefully i help Mark up to our bedroom with my arm secured around his waist whilst we walk upstairs. "O...ow.." Mark softly hisses as we walk.
"Sorry babe." I release my grip on him a little.
"Sssh. Not your fault gorgeous." He squeezes my shoulder a little. Once we get to the bedroom very gently i help him onto the bed. "Finally.... our bed..."  Mark closes his eyes inhaling the smell of the bedroom.
"Can i get you anything beauts?" I smile softly bending forward a little allowing my hand to run through his bouncy fringe.
Mark's eyes remain closed his lips slightly parted. "lay with me... i've missed you..." His hand strokes the empty space beside him. Without making a noise i get along side him. "Lay down..." I feel his hand touch the back of my head slowly allowing it to rest on his steady breathing chest. His hand strokes my hair starting from my neck hair then to my fringe.
"Mmm..." I moan softly closing my eyes. It's been a long past couple of weeks.
One hand plays with my hair whilst the other is wrapped around my shoulder. "Get some rest Gaz... you look shattered..."
Gently i nod against his chest. This will be the first proper sleep i've had since the accident whilst i've the chance i'm going to take it.

Mark's POV

Gary's been asleep on me for about 10minutes. Why can't i sleep for? I don't want to be locked in doors i want to be out there enjoying my summer with Gary, but no. Also i really want to spend the day with my children...just one day...  i wonder if Emma knows what happened to me... doubt she cares now. Can't believe i hurt her. Softly i sigh cuddling Gary a little and placing a little kiss on his forehead. I'm lucky to have such a caring beautiful man in my life who is also my best friend.  A tear espaces my eye and rolls down Gary's cheek. The amount of stress i put him through... i'll never forgive myself... "M...Mark..." Gary mumbles against my chest.
"Awake already?" I whisper looking at him fast asleep.
He starts to get a bit restless. "M...Mark...p..please...please don't...leave me..."
"Gaz?" I stroke his hand a little. "I'm here... i'm here..."
"I love you....Mark...Mark MARK!" His breathing increases his hand grips mine harder.
"Gary open your eyes i'm here babe." I stroke his back trying to wake him. He must be having another nightmare.
"MARK! Mark!! Nooooooo!!!" He almost screams sitting up.
My heart races in my chest staring at the back of him whilst he sits up rubbing his face. "Gaz? Are you ok mate?"
"Y...yeah... bad dream..." Softly he sniffs.
I feel so guilty. He can't even sleep now because of me. "Gaz...are you....are you crying?" Slowly he turns round with red puffy eyes a few tears drip from his cheeks. "Ay... come here..." My arms stretch out to him. Wrapping around the back of his neck allowing his head to rest back onto my chest. "Everything will be ok... i promise..."
He shrugs a little. "Yeah i know... anyway enough about me... how are you feeling now?"
"Sore. Bored. High on hormones and well.. sore." My fingers run though his hair.
Slowly he pokes his head up from under my arm. "High on hormones?"
"Yes."
A cheeky confused grin appears on his face. "What do you mean by that babe?"
"Don't play games Barlow..." Slightly i squeeze his shoulder.
"Tell me." He giggles a little.
I roll my eyes playfully at him. "I'm horny Gaz. Fucking horny. I've been trapped inside for 2weeks! How did you cope?!"
"Well i was far too worried to think about it to be honest... and we can't do anything now you've still got a few weeks to go."
Slightly i pout my lips at him. "But.... you're acting like i'm pregnant. Besides my stitches aren't near my..... and i'm a little uncomfortable..."

"Wow you really are in the mood today." Gary half grins half laughs at me whilst stroking my chest.
"Yes....now show me your talents..." I wink at him feeling myself harden a little.
Gary bites his lip a little before diving under the covers. Feeling his fingers stroke my calf muscle sends shivers down my spine. It's seems like a decade since we've been this close being stuck in that hell hole. Moving his hands higher until they reach the hem of my tracksuit bottoms very gently he starts to pull them down allowing them to reach the top of my knees. My breathing increases a little still feeling sore from my injury it's hard to control my fast breathing. Gary plants soft kisses onto my inner thighs trying to calm me.

Slipping his hands even further his fingers wrap around the elastic in my boxers slowly tugging them down to  where my tracksuit bottoms rest. "G...Gaz..." A soft moan leaves my lips. "Ow..." I sit up a little my stomach hurting slightly.
"Ssssh..." Gary's warm breath makes contact with my hardened length. Carefully i lay back down resting my head into the pillows. A wet pair of lips softly begin kissing onto my skin. "Gaaaz..." I hiss through my teeth.

After a few minutes of teasing with his lips he involves his hands. Forming a fist around my erection he starts off slowly moving up and down along me. Moaning louder i try my best not to tense my stomach to avoid the pain. "Oh...Gaz... you're...good..."
Grinning like a Cheshire cat against my hard on he finally brings his tongue into action. Whilst working my length with his fist speeding up his pace as his tongue slowly slides down and repeating several times. "F...Fuck!" Pressing the back of my head into the pillows arching my back the best i can this is good.

Going deeper exploring the whole of Gary's mouth. "Like that baby...?" Gary moans sending vibrations all through my body.
Already i'm close. "Mmmm...." Is all i mange to reply as he begins to suck harder and teasingly bite. "Bastard..." I grunt.
Gary chuckles a little swirling his tongue all over my skin then suddenly taking me to the back of his throat is enough to throw me over the edge. "G...G...Oh fuck Gary!!" I call out his name releasing myself into his mouth.

Gary's POV

"How did i do?" I giggle from under the covers feeling Mark pant for his breathe back. The covers slowly reveal me resting on Mark's legs.
"Fucking ace Gaz.... just what i needed." He shines me with his famous grin. "Thank you." Using his thumb he wipes the corners of my mouth.
"Anytime gorgeous." I lick my lips tasting Mark.

We lay beside one another just relaxing. I can't believe what's happened in the past couple of weeks. "Babe..?" I whisper. Mark's eyes are closed his hand resting on his rising chest. He must of dozed off after our little moment. It's so strange seeing him laying next to me... i didn't think he would of made it after the accident. "Love you..." Softly i stroke his cheek. The sound of my mobile receiving a text gets my attention. As quiet as possible i learn over Mark reaching for my mobile.  1 new message- Rob. Oh shit... i forgot... my mouth becomes dry and my heart beats a little faster. I haven't heard from him since the night... the night i kissed him. 'We need to talk. Get over here as quick as you can. Rob.' This doesn't sound good. I look over at Mark who's in a deep sleep... Should i go?

chapter 22

Gary's POV

I back away a little. Why the fuck did i do that?! "Erm...i..er..i Rob.. s...sorry... i" My words start to blubber out.
"Erm... i better get off Gaz... it's late." Robbie picks up his coat from the waiting area.
Great he's pissed off now. I didn't mean to i was just happy. "Rob wait..." As i walk after Robbie a doctor calls us over.
"Gents. Mr Owen's awake and he's asking for you Gary." The doctor smiles at us.
Oh god... did i hear that right?! My eyes start to fill with tears. "Send my love to Markie Gaz... will come over and see you both soon... look after each other." We both go to hug, but instead Robbie holds his hand in front of me were we exchange a friendly hand shake instead.
"Thanks for everything Rob... i really do appreciate it all..." I feel a little embarrassed about kissing him. He's one of my best friends it was wrong of me to do that i don't blame him for being annoyed.
"No problem mate... let me know how it all goes...good luck." He smiles then leaves. Softly i sigh. After all this Rob's done then i stupidly ruin it.
"Gary? Are you coming?" The doctor asks still looking at me outside of Mark's door. Quickly i shake my head from the thoughts of Robbie i can't tell Mark what i did... well not now anyway. I head to Mark's room. "Calm down Mr Owen... Gary's coming." A nurse holds Mark's arm.
I take a deep breathe before entering the room. Mark is laying in the bed repeating my name his eyes half closed holding on the oxygen mask which is half on his mouth. "G...Gary...i...i need my Gary..."
"M...Mark?" Nervously i look at him. Tears burn in my eyes. Still in shock from this whole incident.
Mark opens his sleepy eyes the best he could. "G...Gaz? Gary???" He tries to sit up. "Owww...."
"Mr Owen you need to keep rested your stitches are still fresh we don't want them opening up." The young nurse lays him back down.
"I... need Gary... I need him..." Mark closes his eyes whilst moaning from the pain in his stomach.
"Babe i'm here...i'm not going no where..." Gently i take his hand in mine and plant a little kiss on top.

Mark looks at me squinting his eyes at me like he can't hardly see. "Gaz?"
"Yes... i'm here Mark..." I sit beside him still holding his hand gently stroking my thumb against it.
A soft smile appears on his face. "Mmmm...Gary....." His eyes get heavy and his head falls into his pillow.
"Huh? Mark??" Panic hits me. Shit!
"Gary... shush it's ok... he's taken some painkillers... they made him tired and now he's asleep... he's ok..." Dr Carter smiles lifting up Mark's sheet to check his stitches. "Oh...s...sorry..." I swallow hard still stroking Mark's hand. It's killing me seeing him like this.
"You best get some rest too it's been a long night. Things will be better by the morning."
I look at Mark who's fast asleep whilst nodding my head agreeing of getting some sleep of my own.

It only feels like i've been asleep for 10 minutes, but a loud scream wakes me up. My eyes instantly open to be greeted by Mark sat up in bed with blood stained sheets. "G...Ga...Gary..." He looks at me his eyes roll like he's about to pass out.
I freeze from shock looking at the amount of blood. "Fuc...fucking hell! HELP! CAN SOMEONE HELP!!" I shout as loud as i possibly can.
"Ga.....Gary.......H...Help...m....me..." Mark tries to keep his eyes focused.
Quickly i pull back his covers to see where the bloods coming from. His stitches have come undone causing him to bleed. A few doctors come running into the room. "What happened??" One asks me whilst the other two take Mark away.
"I...I...I don't... i was... asleep...Mark...was...s..screamed...i..." My breathing starts to increase i feel sick... i'm going to faint. Please let him be ok!! "Where is he??? I need to know if he's going to be ok!"
"We can't let you go in there Mr Barlow." The doctor holds me back stopping me from going into the same room as Mark.
"Please! You've got to let me see him! I'm begging you! I can't loose him i just can't!" Tears stream down my face. It feels like it's the second... no third time of loosing Mark.
"Sorry sir." He calls security over to try and control me. No chance i'm not going to let Mark slip away from me like this. I kick the doctor in the shin causing him to release his grip on me. Quickly i run into the new room which Mark's been taken into.
"MARK! MARK I'M HERE BABY!" I run over to his bed. He's asleep. The oxygen tube hanging out his mouth whilst a doctor pumps his chest. They all turn to look at me. A buzzing in the background sounds high pitch. No. Please don't tell me.
"We're sorry Mr Barlow... we did everything we could." A nurse places her hand on my shoulder whilst another turns off the high pitch monitor which Mark's wired to.
"N..No... You're lying... this isn't happening... Mark... Mark wake up please..." Softly i stroke his cheek. No response he just lays there. "Mark.. baby... please... please stop sleeping... i love you... Mark... please..." I tap his cheek a little harder. He's not breathing.
"Gary... we're sorry.... he's gone... gone to a better place..."
My eyes widen no this is all a joke. He's going to wake up i know it! "Mark! Please wake up! P...please wake... up. pl....plea....ple........" I break down on his bare chest.
"Gaz? Gary are you ok?" Wait... he's alive!! I knew it!!!
"Mark??? Mark you're alive!!!" I lift my head, but Mark's eyes still remain closed and still he's not breathing. I've gone mad? Gone completely mad!
"Gary? Gary are you ok? It's Mark?" Mark's mouth doesn't move. Huh? I rub my eyes.
"No... no...what's happening??"
I feel a hand on my arm and someone take a grip to my hand. "Open your eyes Gary!" The voice repeats.
Doing as the voice tells me i open my eyes. "MARK??!"
"Gary? I'm here? What's wrong?" I look over to a bed beside me to find Mark holding my hand and shaking my arm.
What the hell is going on?! I'm back in Mark's hospital room again. "B...Bl...blood? You... You... You're alive???! OH MARK!!" I wrap my arms around him tightly hugging him crying into his neck.
"Ouch...Gaz? What's wrong? Did you have a bad dream?" Mark hugs me stroking my back a little.
I nod softly. Loosening my grip on him a little, so i don't hurt him. That was the worst nightmare i've ever had.

Chapter 21

Gary's POV

"Gaz? Gary? Are you still there?" The shaken voice speaks on the other end of the phone. My jaw feels tight making it harder to talk whilst i just stand in the middle of the road in a daze. "Gary seriously you need to get down here... you've got to be with him... mate this is serious..."
"Y..Yeah..i...i'm on...my way..." Softly i mutter bending down to pick up the blood stained hat.
"Right...good..see you soon.."
"B...Bye." I hang up. I've got to get to the hospital... i'm about 10 minutes away from my house, so there's no chance of getting there to my car. I'm going to have to run.

After 20 minutes of the fastest running i've ever done in my life i finally arrive at the hospital. I feel sick from all the running, but most of all because of Mark. Please don't let me be too late. Quickly i make my way to the hospital's entrance noticing Robbie's car parked on way. It still hasn't sunk in all i can think of is why? "GAZ!" A voice calls causing me to look up out of my trance. Robbie comes running towards me pulling me into a tight hug.
"Erm..R..Rob..I...Er..Hi.." I swallow hard keeping my tears in afraid to ask.
"Oh...Mate... thank god you're here..." He wraps his arm around my shoulder guiding me down a corridor. My legs feel like jelly i can barely walk. "He's in here..."

Slowly i lift my head to look through the small window. Inside Mark is laying on a bed with an iv in his right arm and an oxygen pipe hanging out his mouth. "O....oh...god..." I instantly turn white backing away a little. Seeing him like that just throws me. He looks half dead i can't do this. "I..." Trying my best to keep my tears in i fail miserably as they come flooding out.
"Gaz....come here..." I feel two strong arms wrap around me whilst i just break down. "We'll look after him... our little Markie is a fighter..."

"Mr Williams?" A voice interrupts.
Robbie lets go of me. "Y...yeah?" Quickly i wipe my eyes to see a doctor holding a clip board about to enter Mark's room. "This is...er... Mark's... this is Mark's partner... Gary."
"Nice to meet you Gary. I'm Dr Carter Mark's doctor for this evening." He shakes my hand.
Softly i breathe a little faster. "Is...Is he going... to be ok?"
"For now it's early to tell. He hit his head pretty hard on the pavement which has caused a little bit of swelling on the brain, and lost a good amount of blood from the knife injury." My eyes widen whilst listening to him. I hide my hands in my pockets to hide the shaking. "Now... the reason i came back here is i need to know your blood type Gary."
For a second my mind goes blank. "Erm..A...A i think..."
The doctor makes some notes on his clipboard then looks over to Robbie's direction. "And yours Mr Williams?"
"B? Yeah think i'm a B if that one exists?" Robbie raises his eyebrow.
Again he makes some notes. "Perfect." He smiles softly.
"W...why?" Nervously i ask glancing my eyes through the window at Mark.
"Well Mark needs a blood transfusion, and seeing as Mark's the same blood type as your friend then we can start straight away." He looks over at Robbie.
"Huh? Me?" Robbie points to himself. The doctor nods, and hands Robbie a wristband. "But i..."
"As soon as Mr Owen has this transfusion then we can fully deal with the swelling on his brain. The transfusion can even make the swelling go straight away after a few hours. We've already dealt with the wound on his stomach."
Robbie doesn't like the sound of blood being taken and i know he's not always been keen of blood being taken from him. "Please Rob... please... help Mark... i'm begging you." I take Robbie's hand in mine. My eyes almost pleading him to do this. "You've had tattoos and they're by needles... just help Mark... please..."
Robbie looks down at our hands. "Of course...anything for Mark..." He smiles softly and goes with the doctor.

"Gary? Mr Barlow? Wakey wakey." I feel a hand on my back making me jump.
"Huh? What? Where am i??" My eyes open making me go a little light headed. I must of fallen asleep.
A nurse sits beside me. "You're at the hospital... remember? Mr Owen's accident."
"Is he ok??? Please tell me he's ok!?"
"sssh... calm down Mr Barlow..." She smiles a little as she does Robbie walks back around the corner pulling down his sleeve.
"Rob! Are you ok?" I walk over to him.
"Yes... yes i'm fine." He grins.
Why's he grinning for? He's going to tell me this is all a bad dream and Mark was never involved in this...right? "What? Why are you grinning like that??"
"aahh... well... got some good news..." He winks. Why is he being so secretive?
"Rob tell me! Please is it about Mark?"
Robbie places both of his hands onto my shoulders whilst looking into my eyes. "Markie is going to be ok. Thanks to my blood!"
I freeze for a few seconds. Did i just hear right?! Mark's going to be ok?!! I don't know whether to scream or cry. My heart pounds in my chest due to excitement. Mark is going to be ok! My Mark is going to be ok i repeat in my head. "YES!! THANK GOD!!!" Tightly i hug Robbie jumping in his arms.
Robbie laughs. "Good old Markie ay?"
"God this is the best news i've ever heard. I could scream mate! I can't thank you enough!! God i love you Robbie Williams!!" Excitement takes over causing me to kiss him on the lips.

Chapter 20

Robbie's POV

I can't believe the lads didn't tell me. I mean i know i'm not the best at keeping secrets, but still i don't like being the last one to know all the time. Softly i sigh glancing my eyes over at the newspaper which lays beside me in the car with Mark and Gary on the front cover kissing. I decided to pay the pair a visit and to let them know that they have my support whether they want it or not. Maybe we should make a night of it like a boys night in a few drinks and DVDs? I park my car in the supermarket's car park whilst i head inside to pick up a few things.

A few drinks wont hurt seeing as me and Mark are no longer allowed to drink tonight would make an exception. I place the bags in my car where my mind begins to drift off. What happened to Emma and the kids? Wonder if she knew straight away... jeez if she didn't then this newspaper will be hard to take in. Her husband gay with his best friend. I take a cigarette from my coat pocket and places it into my mouth whilst i have a stroll around the car park to stretch my legs. Maybe it's a good idea if i ring Mark to let him know that i'm coming round i don't want to make things worse if they want time alone. I reach into my jeans pocket for my mobile where i scroll for Mark's number. Here goes nothing. It rings a few times then goes to voice mail. Again i ring his number whilst i continue my walk. Strangely i hear a ringtone rather close not too loud but it could be heard. "Mark? Mark mate is that you?" I ask a little nervous. Listening to the sound of the ringtone i decided to follow it and hopefully find Mark. What's he doing out at this time of night? The ringtone gets louder meaning i'm getting closer. "Mark??" I call. Once i turn a corner i notice something in the middle of the road. At first i think it's maybe a some bags, but at a second glance it looks like a person. A drunk maybe?

Whoever it is i should help them anything could happen to them out here alone and drunk. As i make my way up the road my whole body begins to turn into shock. Blood. The person has a small puddle of blood beside them. "Mate are you o-" My speech gets cut off when i realise. No. No it can't be. My stomach churns by the sight. It's Mark.

My eyes widen and my hands begin to shake. What do i do??! This is my best mate lying lifeless on the floor. "M...Mark...?" Slowly i crouch beside him trying to see if he's breathing and hopefully talking. "Mark? It's Robbie... can you hear me?" I move my head to the direction of his chest. Very softly i can hear breathing, but only slightly i breathe a sigh of relief. I've got to get him to the hospital and fast there's no chance they would get here quick enough with all the blood he's lost. "Mark... i need to get you in my car ok... you'll be fine mate... just keep breathing slowly?" Fuck i'm useless i can't loose him! Very gently i put one hand under the back of his neck and the other under his legs. He literally weighs nothing which is probably a good thing making the task easier.

Once i reach my car again very gently i place him lying down on the backseats. "ur....." He moans softly.
"Mark can you hear me??" Nervously i ask. Still no reply. Right we have to go and fast. Making sure he's safe in the back i quickly get back into the drivers seat where i head to the hospital as quick as possible. I can't believe this has happened. What even has happened?! Who the fuck would do such an awful thing! Mark would be the last person on earth to ever have this happen to him. I put my foot down driving a little over the limit.

"CAN SOMEBODY HELP ME?!" I shout once i reach the car park jumping out of my car. Two doctors and a nurse come running into my direction.
"Yes sir?" The nurse asks.
I open the car door to where Mark's lying. "M...My friend... he's... he's been stabbed i think."
The doctors check for Mark's pulse. "Right... we need to get him inside right now! His pulse is dropping he needs oxygen." They lift him onto a stretcher.
"W...where are they taking him?!! Is he going to be ok???" I start to panic whilst Mark gets taken inside.
The nurse places her hand onto my back to try and calm me. "You need to come with us sir.... is there anyone you want to call?"
I think for a second. "I need...I need to ring Gary."

Gary's POV

"Mark can you please ring me back i'm very worried about you. Please. I love you." I sigh that's the 9th voice mail i've left. Where the hell is he?! And what's happened. I look around the kitchen i can't just sit back and wait around here if anythings happened i need to go and find him. Quickly i turn off the oven and move the pans from the stove just incase anything gets burnt.

It's getting darker i don't even know where he is! I jog down the street looking for him. "Mark??" I call whilst jogging up and down streets. This is useless i'm never going to find him at this rate. Maybe i should trace his steps first of all by going to the supermarket where he went in the first place someone can help me out.

On the way to the supermarket i notice something in the road down one the streets. Is that..? No it can't he's never without one. As i get further down the street it becomes clear that i was right. Mark's hat lying in the middle of the road. Instantly i know something not right. What if he's got beaten up?!! Quickly i go into the road to pick up his hat. It's wet... but... it hasn't been raining? I shake my head confused. "Mark?? Where are you?" Still holding his hat i wonder how it even got wet. I look at my hands and notice something. Oh god.... I drop the hat in horror looking at my hands in complete shock. Blood! Surly no this can't be his blood??! I rub my hands together trying to get rid of it feeling incredibly sick. Just before i physically am sick my phone starts to ring. Yes please be Mark! Without looking i answer it straight away. "Mark?! Where are you?? I've been so worried are you ok??"
"Erm...Gaz? Erm...it's Rob..." A shaken voice speaks.
I sigh a little. "Robbie... now isn't the time." I go to hang up.
"No no! Gaz wait......it's about Mark."
Hearing his name makes my eyes widen. "Mark?? What? Where is he? Is he with you? Is he ok?!"
Robbie pauses for a second or two. "He's...with me...er...we're at the... hospital."
"Hospital?!" My knees start to shake and now i feel even more sick. "W...what...?"
"I found him... i was on my way to see you both... someone....someone stabbed him... you need to get down here Gaz."
Mine and Mark's happy dream together had now turned into a nightmare.

Chapter 19

Gary's POV

"Gaaaz!" Mark calls from the bottom of the stairs causing me to wake up. Jeez it's 5:30 in the afternoon! Quickly i get of bed putting some jeans on.
"Babe? Are you ok?" I walk down the stairs buttoning up my shirt. "Babe??"
Once i reach the bottom of the stairs Mark appears holding a newspaper. "We made front page..." He holds the paper in front of me. On the front cover it shows me and Mark kissing in and airport. "Love rat Mark Owen cheats on wife with bestfriend." I shake my head angrily. "What a load of fucking bull! Who the hell do they think they are saying shit which isn't true!"
Mark looks down. "I deserve this..."
"No Mark no you don't! It's not true! You didn't cheat and so what if we're in love! It has fuck all to do with anybody stupid money grabbers i'm gonna sue!" I go to walk up stairs gripping to the paper.
"Gaz.. don't... the whole world would of seen this already... what's the point ay..." He sighs and walks to the kitchen.
Instantly i feel bad seeing Mark like this. He's such a nice man he'd never hurt anyone yet he's been made to look bad. "Babe... come on... i'm sorry... i shouldn't of kissed you..."
"Don't be silly..." He runs his hand through his hair. "Gaz...?"
I walk to him in the kitchen. "Yes?"
"Can...can i have a hug? Please?" Mark's eyes start to get a little red from the tears burning in his eyes.
My arms stretch out around him. "Hey you... you don't need to ask for a hug..." I kiss his forehead pulling him closer against my chest.
"I know... i just.. i don't know..."
"Sssh.. it's ok...i'll cook us dinner tonight... make it special just the two of us, yeah?" I pull away a little moving his fringe from his eyes.
"Sounds good... maybe we could have a bit of wine with it..." Gently he kisses me on the lips.
I answer his kiss and raise my eyebrow a little. "Erm... maybe you shouldn't be drinking mate..."
"Only a glass... i've been good for the past year.. plus i wont be alone... right..." He kisses me more into my neck which causes me to let out a moan.
"Er...o...ok..." It felt like he was hypnotising me with his kisses.

Mark's hands run down my back and up under my shirt stroking my bare back with his finger tips. It starts to feel hot. Very hot. The kisses against my neck turn into soft bites and sucks slowly driving me mad. "Like that babe...?" He whispers against the spot where he sucked feeling his hot breath make contact with my slightly wet neck.
"Uh huh..." My voice sounds hoarse feeling his hand tug at the button of my jeans, and his hand searching down them like he's looking for something... i know exactly what for.
"God...the things you do to me Gary Barlow..." Mark groans a little whilst stroking inside my boxers.
My breathing starts to increase whilst his hand does wonders on my length. "Let's...g..go..up..."
"No... i want to do you here...... and now....." He rips open my shirt. I wasn't expecting that, but it sure was fucking hot!

A soft smirk forms at the corners of his mouth whilst he guides me to the living room to the sofa where it's comfier. Softly he pushes me backwards, so i sit onto it. He crawls onto my lap kissing my bare chest. "Oooh...Mark...."
"You're....gorgeous...so...gorgeous..." He speaks during kisses. Without wasting anymore time he pulls down my jeans and boxers allowing my hardened self to spring free. "Fuck..."
"Lay flat Gaz...." Mark partly grunts whilst he starts to remove his trousers. I do as he says making myself comfy watching him sort himself out before getting back on top of me. Slowly he undoes a condom from his wallet and rolls it onto his rock hard self his eyes not leaving mine.
"I want you..." My arms wrap around the back of his neck pulling him down to my lips for a deep kiss.
The kiss deepens, as he finally pushes inside of me making me bite down onto his lip i'm sure i fetched blood.

"Yes....oh yes Mark!" I stratch my nails into his back feeling his thrusts starting increase. My legs wrap around his waist allowing him more entrance to completely drive me inside. He's so talented at many things including sex.
"Mmmm...you feel so good Gaz...come for me..." He bites against my neck instantly speeding up pushing deeper into me. I feel like i'm going to explode any second. I try and hold it in as much as possible squeezing his back and sofa.
"Good god..." I mutter grunting louder. "I...I'm..." I frown my eyebrows feeling Mark partly pull out then slam back into me. "FUCK! Mark....." It was impossible to hold back much longer. Finally i let go calling out his name. "MAAARKKK!!"
It wasn't long until Mark finally reached his limit too. "Fuck... GAAAZZ!" He shouts collapsing against my sweating chest.

An hour later i start to prepare dinner for tonight. "I'll go to the shop babe you do the vegetables?" I go into the fridge getting out some fresh vegetables.
"Nah it's fine i'll go. You've only got your boxers on you'll get arrested." Mark winks at me.
I roll my eyes playfully. "Obviously i'll get changed you daft sod."
Mark laughs. "Yeah yeah... no it's fine honest i've got some things to fetch anyways. What wine should i get? Red?"
I still don't like the idea of Mark going to bring wine which he'll be drinking too. "Erh...yeah sure."
"See you later babe." He kisses my cheek and leaves.

Mark's POV

I can't wait to get home and crack open this wine i think to myself whilst looking into the shopping bag at it. It's almost calling my name! It's been too long and it'll help my stress anyway..softly i bite my lip looking at it. A small swing walking home wouldn't hurt right? My hand slowly snakes into the bag gripping the top of the wine bottle. I can already taste it. Before i pull it out i get stopped in my tracks by the sound of chatter behind me. Great. "Isn't that Mark Owen?" The voices whisper. "Ooooh the gay one??" They laugh. Who the fuck are they now?! "He goes on with the fat one."
No. Seriously no i'm not having that. "Excuse me?!" I turn around to find two younger males who were a lot taller and bigger than me. I don't care.
"S'up with you old man?" One of them laughs looking at me.
I shake my head a little. "Got something you want to say? Acting like childish pricks."
"Oh yeah... what's it got to do with you then?" They smirk at one another. I can't stand people like this starting on people for no reason fucking idiots.
"Ermm it has seeing as you've got nothing better to do with your lives, but make people's lives a misery, and so what me and Gary are gay it has nothing to do with anyone! So take your pathetic little lives so scurry back to which ever scummy little place you came from." I continue to walk home. Stupid twats who do they think they are? Trying to look hard. Hard?! Bet they can't even get an erection. I laugh to myself. Footsteps begin to sound behind me. I roll my eyes. "Will you two just fu-" My sentence doesn't get finished instead i feel myself make hard contact with the floor. A loud smash falls to the floor the same i do. "AAAh fuck!!" I hold my arm feeling a sicking pain shoot through my whole body.
"Get his wallet." The same voices speak feeling hands touch around my waist area.
I try the best i could to kick my legs trying to get them off me, but it doesn't work the pain in my arm over takes. "Get off! Get off me!!"
"Got it!" One of them laughs taking my wallet from my left trouser pocket. Anger powers inside my body whilst i climb to my feet.
"You fucking twats!" I pull my other arm back smashing my fist against one of the males jaw causing him to fall to the floor. "That's what you g-" A sharp pain in my stomach stops my speech. A sharp ripping pain in my stomach. My hand instantly grips my stomach whilst my eyes slowly look down to that area. A knife. The other one had used a knife on me. Unable to speak i fall to the floor in complete shock holding my wound.
"Oh shit! Mate come on!" He drags his mate from the floor and run away leaving me lying on the cold pavement. A few tears leave my eyes the pain overtakes my body. I've been stabbed...and mugged...now left for dead. I'm not going to survive this.... With the last remaining strength i get my phone from my pocket and press the button to ring the last person who i rang. Gary.

My head rest on the stoned road. My hand completely covered in blood. Dripping even. The phone rings a couple of times then i hear Gary's voice. It sounds like an angels... i guess that's what it'll be like in heaven... if i get there... "Hello Mark? Are you almost home? Dinners ready."
Still unable to speak i try and whisper, but no words come out. "G..." Is all i can manage. More pain in my stomach making my eyes begin to close. I'm dying. I know i am.
"Mark? Babe are you ok?" Gary asks concerned.
More tears leave my eyes whilst i just lay there my version starting to get blurred almost like i'm starting to fall asleep. "Mark??? Please answer me??"
"G...G...G...a...az..." It pains me to speak. I see blood beside me making me feel even more sick.
"Yes?? Mark i'm here what's wrong???" Gary's voice speaks in a worried tone.
My breathing starts to become slower. I need to tell him. I need to tell him before it's too late. "I...I..I...Lo...ve..y...o...you..." My eyes finally close too heavy to keep them open any longer.

Chapter 18

Gary's POV

No this isn't happening it's a dream right?! Quickly i grab my pile of clothes from the floor whilst i run downstairs to my car. He can't be gone! I get into my car and start the engine. I'm not even dressed yet! As i pull off the drive way and head to the airport using my free hand i slip on my shirt, but what if he's already half way to which ever country he's going to?! I've been asleep for a few hours... what if i've missed him... No. Gary stop it. Stop thinking negative get there and get your man back. Whilst i pull my trousers up i put my phone on loud speaker ringing Mark's number. It rings a few times one hand still on the wheel driving a little faster than i should. Shit!! He's rejected it! But... that means..... that means he hasn't left yet!

Once i reach the airport i search for a parking space. Seriously i'll park on the runway if i have to! Why is it so packed for?! I look at my watch i don't have the patience for this... After 5minutes of driving i give up i need to get in there. Without another seconds thought i get of the car and run inside leaving my car in the middle of the car park no chance for other cars to get to the entrance, but who cares Mark is more important. As fast as i can i run inside bumping into a gentleman who's standing in a queue with his wife and kids. "You want to be looking where you're going mate!!" Jeez he's fucking huge!
"Er..s..sorry... i..." Now is not the time to get into a fight. Nervously i look around trying to spot Mark through the crowded lines.
"Don't even think of cutting in line! I know who you are, but me and my family have been here since 9am this morning to hear that our flight has been cancelled!" He angrily throws his tickets on the floor.
"S...sorry.. i've got to... erm.." Quickly i leg it to another line. I'm not much of a fighter and if i can avoid fights then i will.

This is impossible he's not anywhere!Out the corner of my eye i spot a small brown haired lady at an empty reception area maybe she can help...I continue looking around whilst i walk to the desk. "Yes sir...how can i help you today?"
"I'm looking for my mate...erm... he's just a little bit smaller than me... brown hair... never without a smile.. but i don't think he'll have one right now..." I play with my fingers which i always do when i'm nervous. Please say he's still here...
"Sorry sir... but we see a lot of people and your description is pretty basic it describes a few people i've seen today... any other details?" She picks up her handbag and places a sign on the desk 'sorry this desk is closed'.
"He's...erm... Mark...Mark Owen..." I swallow. Surly someones got to recognise him??
The woman just laughs. "Mark Owen?? Now that's one person i'd love to see! Who are you then Robbie or Gary?... Good luck with finding your friend." She winks and walks to the exit.
"Gary Barlow." I mutter under my breath laying my head on the empty desk. This is pointless. No one can even help.
Just as i was about to leave something catches my eye in the best possible way. A mic. A mic for the whole waiting area of the airport! This is my only chance of finding Mark. Quickly i look behind me seeing if there's anymore staff who will stop me before i start. Slowly i creep behind the desk wrapping my hands around the mic giving it a quick tap to see if it's on and i can be heard. Right this is my chance. My one and only chance. My heart almost pounds out my chest, as i let out a deep breath. "Mark...Mark Owen... Are you here??! It's...G...Gary... Please... please don't hide from me... Please don't run away and leave me... You mean everything to me Mark... I've never felt this way about anyone before... you're something special...someone special..." Nervously i take a couple more deep breathes. "I.... I... I love you Mark!! I love you so much Mark Owen!! Yes this is Gary Barlow and Mark Owen means the world to me!" Security starts to approach me. "I LOVE YOU MARK! Please... don't leave!!" I feel myself being pushed against the wall. Pressure against my chest. Two men holding my hands behind my back who start to guide me away from the desk. Guess i blew it. He's gone, and i've made a complete fool of myself.
"Come with us sir. You need to leave premises."
I nod and walk with them. My heart aches. I love him so much this is going to be the worst thing... living a life without the person you love and want to grow old with.

"WAIT! Let him go!!" A voice shouts from one side of the airport aisle.
My head instantly shoots up. "Ma...Mark???!!!"
"Gaz! I heard everything!! I was in the toilet.... i heard you... god... i can't even describe how beautiful it was!!" Mark runs over to me burying his head into my chest. I shake my hands away from security so i can embrace Mark into a tight hug planting kisses into his soft bouncy hair. People started forming a small crowd near us. I didn't care. They even started to take photos hearing 'that's Gary Barlow and Mark Owen??! Are they gay??' we didn't care what people thought of us we are in love and that is all that matters.

My chest started to feel a little damp from Mark's tears. "Come on babe.. lets go home..." I wrap my arm around his shoulder.
"Oi Barlow!" Someone shouts from within the crowd of people. I look over to see a tallish male looking and smirking at me and Mark. "You've got your shirt inside out. Fucking in toilets isn't very hygienic!"
Shit i didn't even notice i put my shirt on the wrong way... my mind wasn't focused i just had to get here. I'll wipe that smug grin off his face. I pull Mark close to me giving him a passionate kiss. The sound of gasps make me grin against Mark's lips. Once i pull away from a stunned Mark's lips we continue to walk as we do i stick my two fingers up a the idiot who tried to be funny. Dickhead. At least i can have Mark in my arms tonight.

Chapter 17

Gary's POV

I feel hurt... is he embarrassed? Ashamed of the way he is.... the way we both are? Maybe he felt sorry for me, but then again he was the one who made the first move. "Gary are you coming?" Mark calls from the car window.
By hearing his voice it brings me back to reality. "Erm... y..yeah coming." I make my way back inside the car buckling my seat belt back on. For a few seconds i look in the mirror above my head looking at myself. Maybe i wasn't the man Mark wanted me to be... what if he's having second thoughts?
"Gary are we going or not?! I don't want to be here much longer." I feel Mark's eyes staring at me burning in the side of my head. Gently i suck my lip. No Gary. No tears. The more i look at myself the more i begin to over think. "Gary! I'm talking to you!" He tugs my leg.
"Why didn't you tell her..." Softly i mumble surprised that i even managed to get words out feeling the way i do.
"What? Tell her what?"
I shake my head a little. "You know exactly what i'm talking about Mark... you're embarrassed aren't you?" I bit my tongue a little stopping my tears from falling.
"N...No? Of course i'm not." He raises his eyebrow at me. That sweet innocent face looking at me.
"Then...why haven't you told her...?"
Softly he sighs. "I didn't think it mattered just now... i've only just left her."
Those words. 'didn't think it mattered.' Causes a few tears to leave my eyes. "O..Ok..." I start the engine.
"Gaz? Are you crying?" Mark's hand touches my cheek, but i just move away not allowing his hand to make contact with my face.
"We need to get home.. i've got to do some work in the studio." I wipe my eyes on my arm as i pull out of the school's car park.

The car journey was completely silent. Neither of us spoke at all. It was a relief when i finally turned the corner to my house to park onto the drive. "Gaz..." Mark looks up at me once i remove the key from the car making it even more silent.
"I've got work to do... there's food in the fridge help yourself." I shut my car door. I didn't stick around to hear Mark's answer instead i made my way upstairs to my studio instantly locking the door behind me. My heart aches. Those words go around in my head again. 'Didn't think it mattered.' Causing more tears to leave my eyes slowly my back slides down the door until i'm making contact with the floor. Allowing my face to bury into my hands where i begin to cry. I love him so much he doesn't understand. I'm a 42 year old man and i feel like i'm 16. Maybe he used me for an excuse to leave Emma... like he just wanted to try me for an experiment to see what it's like to be gay...confused by his sexuality, and i didn't reach his standards i guess. Slowly i lay on the floor bringing my knees to my chest quietly crying myself to sleep.

Pain in my back causes my eyes to open. "Urgh." I open my eyes resting my hand on my back. How long was i asleep for? I best get to bed before my back is even more fucked up. The sky outside is pitch black, so i must of been asleep for at least a couple of hours. Slowly i make my way to the bedroom remembering why i was asleep on the floor in the first place. The hallway is quiet he must be asleep. "Mark..." I whisper making my way to the bedroom still holding my back stumbling around in the dark for a light switch. No answer came from the bedroom. He's either asleep or ignoring me. Once i reach the bedroom  i begin to take my clothes off in the complete darkness. The only thing which could make me feel better is to fall asleep in Mark's arms. I remove my shirt and trousers before getting into bed. "Mark..." I move over to the othersise feeling around for him. Wait. It's empty? The bed is empty??! Quickly i switch on the bedside light. He's not here? He never came to bed? Just as i was about to leave the room i notice something catch my eye. A note resting on his pillow. " Gaz... i just want to say how sorry i am. I've fucked up one relationship and now i've done the same with you. This has been a really hard time in my life and i don't want it affecting you. Seeing you cry today partly broke my heart. (Well what i have left of it anyway.) You was crying because of me. I should be there to make you happy the only time i should make you cry is when i'm making you laugh. I was wrong. I was also wrong for saying it didn't matter about telling Emma about us. I want to tell the whole world. The only reason i didn't was, because i just wanted to spend one day with my children knowing Emma as soon as  finds out it'll be too late to see them again... selfish of me i know. Sorry for not saying goodbye in person. I'm useless at saying goodbyes and especially if i was saying it to the only man i've ever loved. Promise me one just one thing Gary... promise me that you will find someone who could be a better boyfriend than what i was... who will love you without loving themselves first... someone to settle down...start a family with you... no baggage no problems... whether that love comes from a man or a woman... that's all i ask... sorry for everything from the bottom of my heart... no matter what i'll always love you... it pains me to leave, but it's for the best i don't stay in the country being without you seeing your hand in another person's hand...that person not being me... i love you Gary always and forever don't ever forget that babe... love always  your Marko xxx
Ps. I never ever had regrets us. I've loved you for a long time even before Emma... i just never had the guts to tell you. You're a very special man Gary... the night i kissed you was the best thing i've ever done... " Quickly i jump out of bed opening the wardrobe doors. His clothes are gone. Everything of Mark's has gone!! No this can't be happening! I've got to get him! Or is it too late...?

Chapter 16

Gary's POV

The soft chirping of birds from outside wake me up. Slowly i open my eyes to find Mark fast asleep in my arms still. Last night was truly amazing and simply beautiful. My fingers run through his messy hair everything about him is perfect even his hair is! A soft smile appears on his face. "Morning beautiful..."
"Mmm..." Mark buries his face against my bare chest not wanting to open his eyes.
"I said... morning beautiful!" Gently i place kisses in his neck tickling him as much as possible with my lips and tongue.
"GAAAZ!!" Mark giggles loudly. "I'm awake i'm awake!"
Tightly i wrap my arms around him and plant a big kiss on his forehead. "Yay..."
"Mmm... last night was amazing...." He softly strokes my bare arm. Both of us lay together in bed still naked from last night.
"Sure was... the best..." I nuzzle against his neck and shoulder inhaling his scent.
Mark stretches a little closing his eyes again. "What time is it...?" He mumbles.
I pick up my phone from the bedside table. "It's 1:30."
"In the morning?"
"Erm... no we didn't go to bed until about 2am last night... it's 1:30 in the afternoon." I stroke his hair again.
"WHAT?! No no no i've only got an hour!" Mark jumps out of bed. He quickly starts to get dressed looking for his clothes.
"Woah Mark calm down mate?? What's wrong?" I sit up confused watching him get dressed.
"Erm... i need to get to the school...s...sorry Gaz..." He sighs softly. "I'm a mess... ignore me.. i just thought i could get something right... i've fucked up my marriage... at least i could still be a good dad to my kids..."
I shake my head softly. "You are the best Dad those kids could ever ask for... you're always there for them... don't ever doubt that Mark...they love you to pieces..."
"Y..yeah.. i hope so.." He runs his hand through his messy fringe.
"I know so... now... lets get to that school."

Within 45 minutes we finally got to the school we would of got there sooner if a range rover in front didn't decide to break down! There was a line outside the entrance where parents are being let in. "Will you come with me Gaz?" Mark looks up at me looking a bit worried.
"But isn't Emma in there? Surly she'll have a problem seeing us together..?"
Mark doesn't reply instead he just gets out the car and walks over to the gates of the school. I sigh a little and take deep breath before getting out the car and following him. "Mark.... wait for me then."

We both stand in line. Emma is no where to be seen she's either late or is already inside. "Tickets gents." A smartly dressed woman holds out her hand to me and Mark.
"Errr?" I look at Mark. He never mentioned anything about tickets.
Mark looks with a confused face at her. "T...tickets? No one told me you needed tickets?"
"Sorry, but you can't get in without tickets.. that's the rules." She continues taking tickets off the other parents and letting them in. Mark almost looks like he's about to cry.
"B...But... i've come for my little boy... Luke... Luke Owen?? I'm his dad... come on you've got to let me in! Please!"
"Sorry... but like i said no tickets no entry... we don't know every parent you could be anyone... this is for the child's sake." The final set of parents walk in.
"I'M NOT JUST ANYONE! I'M MARK OWEN AND MY SON IS IN THERE!" Mark shouts at her causing some other teachers to come outside.
"Sir please leave the school site before we ring the police." They point to the exit of the car park.
"Come on Mark..." I take his arm.
A few tears leave his eyes which he angrily wipes away whilst walking with me. "They fucking can't do this. That's my son in there! Maybe there's another way of getting in..." He turns back watching the teachers lock the front door of the school.
"Or...maybe we should leave it... instead of risking getting arrested?"
Mark looks at me and frowns. "How could you say that like it doesn't matter! I thought better of you Gary." He walks off to the other side of the school. Great we really are going to get into trouble now.
"Mark wait! Come on please!" I run after him. He tries the other door, but it's locked the only way is a window which is rather high to climb up to. "See.. we can't even get in... we can't do anything about it... babe let's just wait until it's finished and you can see him..."

Mark freezes as if he's thought of something a small smile forms at the corners of his mouth. "Can i sit on your shoulders and watch through the window?"
"Eh? I've got a bad back mate and it's a bit dangerous." The sound of clapping comes from inside the window.
"Now welcome on stage Luke Owen!" A voice says and the clapping gets louder.
"Please Gary please please!!" Mark almost begged tugging at my shirt.
I pause for a few seconds and sighs. "Right ok..."
"Thank Gary!!" He kisses me on the lips. Quickly i bend down and allow him to get onto my shoulder. He's not that heavy, but i'm not that strong either.
"Grab...onto the...window ledge... so you wont fall.." I stand up so he can hold onto the window ledge.
"I can see him!!" Mark smiles looking through the window.

After 10minutes Luke's part was over. "Right come on Mark... lets get out of here."
"No no wait.... Well done Luke!! Daddy's proud of you!!" Mark shouts through the window. Oh shit. The claps stops and a few people gasp.
"Mark! We need to get out of here!" I quickly bend down so he can get off my shoulders. "Come on!" I pull his arm back to the car.

"MARK!" We hear a voice call behind us. It's Emma and she doesn't look too pleased. "What are you playing at??" She walks up to us.
"I wanted to see MY son. What's the problem??" Mark frowns.
A small blonde haired boy runs out from behind Emma wrapping his arms around Mark's leg. "DADDY!"
"Luke! Oh son... Daddy is so so proud of you... i've missed you so much!" He pulls him into his arms and begins to well up. Seeing the pair like this almost starts the waterworks off for me!
"Luke.. come on we need to go home... i'll buy you an ice cream.." Emma takes his hand.
"Daddy will come and visit soon..." Mark wipes his eyes.
Emma shakes her head. "Daddy is busy a the moment... with his missus." She walks back to her car.
"Yeah nice one!" Mark calls back mumbling under his breath whilst he walks back to the car.
Wait... missus?? That means.. that means Mark never told her that i was the person he was seeing.... has he changed his mind?! Instantly i feel sick just standing in the middle of the car park. Why hasn't he told her....?

Chapter 15

Gary's POV

My fingers run through Mark's neck hair and along his back. Mark's lips feel just how they look soft, wet and breathtaking. Is this really happening? Slowly we both pull away at the same time and look at one another. His face showed a blank expression maybe he regrets doing that...but i for one enjoyed it whilst it lasted. "Erm...s..sorry.." I swallowed a little and looked down.
"Why? I was the one who did it..." Mark bit his bottom lip a little covering up his cheeky grin.
"D...Do you regret it?"
Mark rolls his eyes at me whilst gently pushing me back into the pillows and starts off another breathtaking kiss. I could feel Mark's bare legs rub against my trousers and his stomach pressing against my bulge. This is amazing. He's amazing. My breathing started to increase feeling him fiddle with each of the buttons on my shirt. The warmth from his palms stroking my now bare chest as he tears away my shirt tossing it to the floor. Gently he plants soft kisses from behind my ear, to my neck then to my chest. It's like as if fireworks are exploding in my stomach. Mark's hands slowly snake down to the belt of my trousers causing my eyes to snap open gripping to his hands. "What?" A confused look forms on Mark's face.
"Are you sure?" My hands still hold Mark's wrists. Stopping him in his actions.
He lets go of my trousers. "You're right... i shouldn't rush you...sorry Gaz..."
"N...No i mean... i want to... but...are you ready? Are we ready? I've never done this with a man before... i don't want to loose you if it doesn't go to planned... i love you too much Mark..." Tears start to burn in my eyes.
"That will never happen... i love you too Gary... a lot... if it doesn't work out then it doesn't work out..." Mark gently strokes my cheek with the back of my hand making me feel safe.
"Promise?"
"I promise." He smiles.

After about half another of kissing and touching it felt like it was finally time. I feel like a teenager again ready for my first time, but then again it is my first time....with Mark. Slowly i reach into the bedside table's drawer and hand him a small packet containing a condom. "Want...me to er..." Pointing to the rather large visible erection in Mark's boxers.
"Sure..." He blushes slightly handing back the packet. Carefully i open the packet whilst Mark removes his boxers allowing himself to spring free. Wow... It's the first time i've been this close to a man before...even though we've all fooled around in the past this was different... a lot different and it felt good.. my first time this way couldn't get any better than with my best friend... the man i love... Gently i roll the condom onto his hardened member. "Ah..Gaz.." Mark hisses through his teeth from my touch.

Mark makes his way back onto my stomach feeling his erection dig into my thigh whilst his fingers hook the hem of my boxers tugging them to my ankles. God the things this man is doing to me is unbelievable. "R...Ready?" Mark pants looking up at me.
"Ready..." Shyly i grin at him wrapping my arms around the back of his neck. We sealed our promise with a deep passionate kiss. My heart started to increase it almost jumped out my chest feeling Mark get even closer until he couldn't get much more, as he finally entered me. "FUCK." A loud grunt leaves my lips.
"Oooh... Gaz..." Mark rolls his head against my neck whilst he starts nice and slow allowing us both to get use to it. At first it was a burning pain which was soon replaced by pleasure.
"Oh god...." His thrusts begin to increase driving me even more insane.
Mark lifts his head and looks at me. "Do...Do you want... me to...stop?"
"N...No...please don't..." I almost growl. This feels way too good for him to stop. Fuck this is amazing!
"Good!" Mark grins tugging my lip into between his teeth.

I'm so close to my limit feeling Mark slowly pull out then slam back into me. "Fuck...M..Mark...I..I'm..." My whole body begins to tremble from this pleasurable pain.
"M..Me..too..." Our lips vibrate against one another from our moans. My slightly parted lips gain Mark's tongue access allowing him to explore my mouth. Feeling him slide his tongue against mine and teasingly bite it completely throws me off the edge unable to hold it in much longer i finally let myself go shouting out his name. "M...M....MAAAARRKK!!!" I collapse into the pillows. It wasn't long after me releasing Mark had finally reached his limit too. A few moans and groans fill the room as he also lets go riding out his orgasm. "FUCKING HELL GAZ!!" Mark moans against my neck. We both lay panting together. Slowly with the last bit of energy i have i stroke Mark's dampened hair whilst he lays on my chest. "Love you..." Softly i whisper trying to keep my eyes open.
"Love you too.." Mark smiles against my chest with his eyes closed. I wrap the duvet over us both. There wouldn't be a better way for the night to end than the pair of us to fall asleep together.